Hello everyone.
I am so sorry for the lack of updates, my baby is due in less than 2 weeks and I am so uncomfortable and sore, I have a lot of problems with my joints as I suffer from arthritis and due to the pregnancy I am unable to take my medication. The baby is really big so I am in a lot of pain but I just keep telling myself it will all be worthwhile when I get to see my beautiful baby boy. My fingers are just some of the joints that are sore so that is part of the reason for the lack of updates.
Also we have sold our flat and are moving to a bigger house which I am very excited about. It is a brand new house bought straight from the builders, the baby will have his own room, there is a nice garden for him to play in when he gets bigger. The kitchen is brilliant and I cant wait to start cooking in it. Also it is really close to Paul's work so everything is working out well. We have been packing so many things away as we have figured that once the baby comes we will want to give all our attention to him.
As you can tell I am very excited about everything. My new house and the imminent arrival of my beautiful baby boy.
I will try to get a chapter posted before the baby is born but if not as soon as I get into a routine I will get back to posting chapters regularly.
I will also be sure to let you all know once the baby is born and if any of you are every in Scotland please come and visit.
Anyway, thanks very much for all your support, I hope you are all enjoying the story so far and I promise not to leave you all hanging for to much longer.
Keep in touch everyone, I love hearing from you all.
Take care.
xxxxxx
Tuesday, 2 March 2010
Friday, 5 February 2010
Chapter 36
The meal went well and I felt completely relaxed with the guys. I had no need to worry after all, after the meal was finished we all made our way to the lounge area and got a round of drinks. I sat down at a table with Tyler, Flower, Max, Jordan, Tanger and Geno.
The evening was filled with hilarity, it was so good to be in their company again, I had missed them so much more than I realised when Tyler and I were not together.
I was nominated to go to the bar to order the next round, I made my way to the bar and stood next to a very familiar looking man. I was standing looking at him when suddenly he turned to me.
“Can I help you?” He asked with a big grin.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to stare at you, you just look very familiar to me.” I looked away but it was bugging why I knew this guy.
“Miss Robertson, wow it is a pleasure to have you standing next to me, you are in inspiration.” His deep voice sounded excited as he continued to look back at me.
“Eh, thanks, it is not often I am recognised” I smile as I look round at Tyler.
Suddenly it occurs to me who the man is that I am talking too.
“Oh my god, I suddenly realised who you are, I am a massive fan. You have an amazing voice and I love your songs. You are very talented.”
We talked for a few moments longer and I gave him my business card telling him that if he wanted to come into the office if he was in town he was more than welcome too. I ordered the drinks and headed back to the guys with the biggest grin.
“Who were you chatting up?” Max asked with that devilish grin of his.
“That is Chris Daughtry, I am a massive fan of his. I am so excited.”
“It is who?” He asked looking confused.
“He is the lead singer of one of Gill’s favourite bands” Tyler answered. “The first time I heard her sing, she sang one of their songs.”
“You didn’t tell me you could sing?” I heard from a voice behind me that sounded like Chris.
I turned round only to be met by his big dark brown eyes. “I like to sing for fun, nothing serious.”
“Don’t listen to her” Jordan pipes up, “she is an amazing musician, she has a wonderful singing voice, she can play the piano like an angel and she is also fairly talented when it comes to playing guitar.”
“You fancy showing off your talents, there is a perfectly tuned piano in the corner looking rather lonely, I have my guitar down here too?”
“Oh no no I don’t sing in public.” I answered feeling my face getting redder by the moment as I become more and more embarrassed.
All of the guys started pleading with me to sing and I knew that I would not hear the end of it until I agreed.
“Ok fine, I will do it, let me just warm my hands up, think about what song you want to do.” I turned to Chris then made my way over to the piano. He left me for 10 or so minutes and then approached to ask if I was ready. I had never played in front of so many people and I was nervous, and I had certainly never sang with anyone as good as Chris before, what if I ruin his song?
I took a deep breathe, exhaled and told Chris I was ready. He decided that we would sing ‘It’s Not Over’ after Tyler told him it was my favourite.
The lyrics are as follows:
I was blown away what could I say
It all seemed to make sense
You’ve taken away everything
And I can’t do without
I try to see the good in life
But good things in life are hard to find
Blow it away, Blow it away
Can we make this something good
Well I tried to do it right this time around
Let’s start over
I tried to do it right this time around
Its not over
There’s a part of me that’s dead and in the ground
This love is killing me, but you’re the only one
Its not over
Taken all I could take and I cannot wait
Were wasting to much time
Being strong holding on
Cant let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won’t give up that easily
Blow it Away, Blow it Away
Can we make this something good
Cause its all misunderstood
Well I tried to do it right this time around
Let’s start over
I tried to do it right this time around
It’s not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one
It’s not over
We can’t let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don’t get caught up in yourself
Let it out
Let’s start over
I tried to do it right this time around
It’s not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one
It’s not over
Let’s start over
Its not over, Oh yeah, yeah!
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one
It’s not over.....
“Fuck Gill… How can you even try to say that you are not very good, that was amazing. I have never sang a duet like it, I want to work with you again!”
“I don’t know about that. Thank you, I am glad you liked it.”
We talked for a while longer before calling it a night, I promised Chris I would think about singing with him again and that I would see him soon.
Tyler and I made it up to our room and cuddled into bed together.
“You are amazing Gill, you never disappoint me.”
We quickly fell asleep and before I knew it it was time to head to work.
The evening was filled with hilarity, it was so good to be in their company again, I had missed them so much more than I realised when Tyler and I were not together.
I was nominated to go to the bar to order the next round, I made my way to the bar and stood next to a very familiar looking man. I was standing looking at him when suddenly he turned to me.
“Can I help you?” He asked with a big grin.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to stare at you, you just look very familiar to me.” I looked away but it was bugging why I knew this guy.
“Miss Robertson, wow it is a pleasure to have you standing next to me, you are in inspiration.” His deep voice sounded excited as he continued to look back at me.
“Eh, thanks, it is not often I am recognised” I smile as I look round at Tyler.
Suddenly it occurs to me who the man is that I am talking too.
“Oh my god, I suddenly realised who you are, I am a massive fan. You have an amazing voice and I love your songs. You are very talented.”
We talked for a few moments longer and I gave him my business card telling him that if he wanted to come into the office if he was in town he was more than welcome too. I ordered the drinks and headed back to the guys with the biggest grin.
“Who were you chatting up?” Max asked with that devilish grin of his.
“That is Chris Daughtry, I am a massive fan of his. I am so excited.”
“It is who?” He asked looking confused.
“He is the lead singer of one of Gill’s favourite bands” Tyler answered. “The first time I heard her sing, she sang one of their songs.”
“You didn’t tell me you could sing?” I heard from a voice behind me that sounded like Chris.
I turned round only to be met by his big dark brown eyes. “I like to sing for fun, nothing serious.”
“Don’t listen to her” Jordan pipes up, “she is an amazing musician, she has a wonderful singing voice, she can play the piano like an angel and she is also fairly talented when it comes to playing guitar.”
“You fancy showing off your talents, there is a perfectly tuned piano in the corner looking rather lonely, I have my guitar down here too?”
“Oh no no I don’t sing in public.” I answered feeling my face getting redder by the moment as I become more and more embarrassed.
All of the guys started pleading with me to sing and I knew that I would not hear the end of it until I agreed.
“Ok fine, I will do it, let me just warm my hands up, think about what song you want to do.” I turned to Chris then made my way over to the piano. He left me for 10 or so minutes and then approached to ask if I was ready. I had never played in front of so many people and I was nervous, and I had certainly never sang with anyone as good as Chris before, what if I ruin his song?
I took a deep breathe, exhaled and told Chris I was ready. He decided that we would sing ‘It’s Not Over’ after Tyler told him it was my favourite.
The lyrics are as follows:
I was blown away what could I say
It all seemed to make sense
You’ve taken away everything
And I can’t do without
I try to see the good in life
But good things in life are hard to find
Blow it away, Blow it away
Can we make this something good
Well I tried to do it right this time around
Let’s start over
I tried to do it right this time around
Its not over
There’s a part of me that’s dead and in the ground
This love is killing me, but you’re the only one
Its not over
Taken all I could take and I cannot wait
Were wasting to much time
Being strong holding on
Cant let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won’t give up that easily
Blow it Away, Blow it Away
Can we make this something good
Cause its all misunderstood
Well I tried to do it right this time around
Let’s start over
I tried to do it right this time around
It’s not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one
It’s not over
We can’t let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don’t get caught up in yourself
Let it out
Let’s start over
I tried to do it right this time around
It’s not over
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one
It’s not over
Let’s start over
Its not over, Oh yeah, yeah!
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one
It’s not over.....
“Fuck Gill… How can you even try to say that you are not very good, that was amazing. I have never sang a duet like it, I want to work with you again!”
“I don’t know about that. Thank you, I am glad you liked it.”
We talked for a while longer before calling it a night, I promised Chris I would think about singing with him again and that I would see him soon.
Tyler and I made it up to our room and cuddled into bed together.
“You are amazing Gill, you never disappoint me.”
We quickly fell asleep and before I knew it it was time to head to work.
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
Chapter 35
Time continued to pass at lightening speed and before I knew it we were leaving for Detroit.
“So I will see you when I get to Detroit, I can’t believe Michel is letting us stay together while we are there, its going to be great. Have a safe trip hunny and I will see you in a few hours.”
Tyler left for the arena and he still had no idea that we would be flying on my aeroplane. I finished packing and then left for the airport.
I headed off to my own private waiting room, opened my laptop and busied myself until I heard some noise outside. I looked up and noticed the team were arriving so I switched the laptop off and packed it back in its bag. Moments later they burst into the room.
“You great girl, I love you.” I heard Geno announce to me as he walked over and hugged me.
“Thanks Geno, I love you too but what is with the show of emotions?”
“You have aeroplane for us to fly so I love you.” His broken English makes me weak at the knees every time I speak to him. I think he will become a good friend of mine.
“Gill, you never fail to amaze me, I can’t believe you never told me about this?” Tyler kisses me and then sits down beside me.
“I wanted it to be a surprise.”
A short while later we boarded the plane and almost straight away the team took out their PSP’s and started play Call of Duty, occasionally you would hear raised voices as someone killed some else, it was very amusing to watch but very distracting as I prefer to work in peace and quiet.
About half way through the flight I heard a shout from the front of the plane.
“Gill is there food on this thing, I am so hungry.”
The air hostess arrived moments later with snacks for everyone much to the guys delight.
We soon arrived in Detroit and filled the bus that was put on for us. The short ride to the hotel was uneventful until we pulled up outside to see that some fans were waiting. I left the guys as they signed autographs to check into the hotel, I made my way up to my room and switched my laptop on again.
I undressed and climbed into the shower to unwind some before doing some work for the remainder of the day. Moments later I was joined by Tyler.
“Hey Sexy any room for me in there?” He asks as I see him undress through the frosted glass doors.
I remain silent as he opens the door and joins me under the scolding hot water.
“Wow” He comments as he stands looking me up and down, his hand reaching out and touching my waist with the tips of his fingers.
“I never get fed up of seeing your body, I swear it gets more beautiful every time.”
I lower my head trying to hide the embarrassment from being complimented only to have him place a finger under my chin and lift my face to look at him.
“You are just going to have to get used to me complimenting you because it is going to happen on a regular basis forever more.”
He leaned in and kissed me and what started gentle soon heated up. Soon our tongues were fighting for possession and our hands were exploring each others body, before I knew what was happening I was pinned against the wall with TK working his magic. We climaxed together, enjoying the hot water run down over us we stayed in each others arms for a few moments longer.
“Right Mister, sorry to disappoint but I am here on a business trip so therefore I have work to do. And you need to go and meet the team, I will see you in a few hours for the evening meal.
I dressed in a pair of fitted shorts and a vest and lay down on the bed with my laptop.
“Gill, you cannot dress like that and expect me to keep my hands to myself.” I feel TK come over and run his hands up and down my back and I wanted nothing more than to have a replay of what had just taken place in the shower.
“Sorry gorgeous but you need to get down and meet the team, I will see you soon.”
We kissed passionately but gently, full of emotion and moments later Tyler left.
I logged on to my emails and found that I had mail from my brother telling me that him, his girlfriend, his son and our parents were coming over for Christmas, ‘great’ I thought to myself, ‘more disapproval from the people who are supposed to love me the most, I am certainly not looking forward to the festivities now.’
I spent the next couple of hours working and eventually switched off the laptop to get ready for the meal that I was asked to attend with the team. I was the only girlfriend on the trip and was a bit concerned that I would feel out of place or like I was intruding.
I looked through the clothes that I had taken with me and decided on a pair of baggy hipster jeans, a fitted V neck jumper and flat sandals. I knew that we were not leaving the hotel tonight so I threw my hair into a messy ponytail leaving a few stray bits down around my face, grabbed my phone and room key shoving them into my pockets and made my way down to the restaurant.
“So I will see you when I get to Detroit, I can’t believe Michel is letting us stay together while we are there, its going to be great. Have a safe trip hunny and I will see you in a few hours.”
Tyler left for the arena and he still had no idea that we would be flying on my aeroplane. I finished packing and then left for the airport.
I headed off to my own private waiting room, opened my laptop and busied myself until I heard some noise outside. I looked up and noticed the team were arriving so I switched the laptop off and packed it back in its bag. Moments later they burst into the room.
“You great girl, I love you.” I heard Geno announce to me as he walked over and hugged me.
“Thanks Geno, I love you too but what is with the show of emotions?”
“You have aeroplane for us to fly so I love you.” His broken English makes me weak at the knees every time I speak to him. I think he will become a good friend of mine.
“Gill, you never fail to amaze me, I can’t believe you never told me about this?” Tyler kisses me and then sits down beside me.
“I wanted it to be a surprise.”
A short while later we boarded the plane and almost straight away the team took out their PSP’s and started play Call of Duty, occasionally you would hear raised voices as someone killed some else, it was very amusing to watch but very distracting as I prefer to work in peace and quiet.
About half way through the flight I heard a shout from the front of the plane.
“Gill is there food on this thing, I am so hungry.”
The air hostess arrived moments later with snacks for everyone much to the guys delight.
We soon arrived in Detroit and filled the bus that was put on for us. The short ride to the hotel was uneventful until we pulled up outside to see that some fans were waiting. I left the guys as they signed autographs to check into the hotel, I made my way up to my room and switched my laptop on again.
I undressed and climbed into the shower to unwind some before doing some work for the remainder of the day. Moments later I was joined by Tyler.
“Hey Sexy any room for me in there?” He asks as I see him undress through the frosted glass doors.
I remain silent as he opens the door and joins me under the scolding hot water.
“Wow” He comments as he stands looking me up and down, his hand reaching out and touching my waist with the tips of his fingers.
“I never get fed up of seeing your body, I swear it gets more beautiful every time.”
I lower my head trying to hide the embarrassment from being complimented only to have him place a finger under my chin and lift my face to look at him.
“You are just going to have to get used to me complimenting you because it is going to happen on a regular basis forever more.”
He leaned in and kissed me and what started gentle soon heated up. Soon our tongues were fighting for possession and our hands were exploring each others body, before I knew what was happening I was pinned against the wall with TK working his magic. We climaxed together, enjoying the hot water run down over us we stayed in each others arms for a few moments longer.
“Right Mister, sorry to disappoint but I am here on a business trip so therefore I have work to do. And you need to go and meet the team, I will see you in a few hours for the evening meal.
I dressed in a pair of fitted shorts and a vest and lay down on the bed with my laptop.
“Gill, you cannot dress like that and expect me to keep my hands to myself.” I feel TK come over and run his hands up and down my back and I wanted nothing more than to have a replay of what had just taken place in the shower.
“Sorry gorgeous but you need to get down and meet the team, I will see you soon.”
We kissed passionately but gently, full of emotion and moments later Tyler left.
I logged on to my emails and found that I had mail from my brother telling me that him, his girlfriend, his son and our parents were coming over for Christmas, ‘great’ I thought to myself, ‘more disapproval from the people who are supposed to love me the most, I am certainly not looking forward to the festivities now.’
I spent the next couple of hours working and eventually switched off the laptop to get ready for the meal that I was asked to attend with the team. I was the only girlfriend on the trip and was a bit concerned that I would feel out of place or like I was intruding.
I looked through the clothes that I had taken with me and decided on a pair of baggy hipster jeans, a fitted V neck jumper and flat sandals. I knew that we were not leaving the hotel tonight so I threw my hair into a messy ponytail leaving a few stray bits down around my face, grabbed my phone and room key shoving them into my pockets and made my way down to the restaurant.
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
Chapter 34
Once again I am really sorry for the long wait between the chapters. I am now in my 3rd trimester of my pregnancy so I am tired all the time. Hope you all had a great festive period and 2010 brings all you could hope for.
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We spent the next few hours talking, discussing what we had been doing the last month with both of us admitting that we had shut our friends out, I decided to be fairly honest with him about the pain that I had been in but didn’t go into to much detail so that I could spare him the guilt that I knew he already felt and I definitely did not tell him about the nightmares.
“Why don’t I phone Jordan and tell him to invite everyone round, we don’t need to tell them about us yet, it can be a surprise when they get here.”
“That would be great hunny you are a star.”
I went to the kitchen counter to pick up my phone and I dialed Jordan’s number, he picked up after 2 rings.
“Hey Gill, good to hear from you. How are you?” He asks in his usually bubbly voice.
“I am not too bad thanks. I have decided it is time to get out of this rut that I am in and invite everyone round this afternoon, I miss all you guys. Are you free?” I ask trying not to sound to happy.
“Yeah of course I am free especially for you, what time do you want me round?”
“Any time Jordan, could you please phone the guys? I will phone Vero, Lorna and Clair.”
“Yeah of course, do you want me to call TK?” He asks as his tone of voice changes.
“Yep, he is part of the team and we can’t avoid each other forever.”
“Ok cool, he probably won’t come, he never does anything any more and we miss him. How did your talk go with him last night? I was not sure whether to leave you or not.”
“There was a lot of shouting going on, we both got a lot of things of our chest but that’s about it.”
“Ok Gill, I will talk to you more soon, I will get to phoning everyone and will see you in a couple of hours.”
Next I phoned Lorna.
“Hey Gill, it is good to hear from you.”
“Thanks Lorna, do you and Sid fancy coming round for a while today? I have asked Jordan to ask everyone.”
“Oh that would be great, I am so excited. See you soon.”
Good, no questions means no lies I thought as I hung up the phone.
Next I phoned Vero.
“Hey Lovely how are you?” She answers the phone sounding as cheery as always.
“Hey V, I am ok thanks how are you? Would you and Marc-Andre like to come round today? I have asked Jordan to ask all the team.”
“We would love too, we have missed you so much Gill, I can’t wait to see you.”
We finished up the conversation and lastly I phoned Clair having pretty much a word for word conversation with her as I had had with Vero only moments before.
Shortly after Tylers phone rang.
“Hey Staalzy, what is up?” He answered trying to sound solemn.
“I don’t know, it probably is not a good idea, I don’t want to ruin it.” He smiled at me when he was not talking. It was amusing only hearing one side of the conversation although I could only imagine what Jordan was saying to him.
“I miss you guys too, I might come down for a while later, I’ll see. See ya later, have fun.”
We sat talking for a while and soon it is was time for everyone arriving, we decided that Tyler had better hide until everyone arrived so he locked himself in the basement and I said I would text him when it was safe to come up.
Many of the guys started arriving helping themselves to bottles of beer out of the fridge and telling me they were so pleased to see me, it felt good to be in their company again.
Soon Jordan arrived giving me a big hug as soon as he saw me.
“Don’t you ever do that to me again” He says as he held me close to him.
“I have missed you too Jordan” I laugh as I pull away from him.
“Go and get yourself a drink.” I say as I walk off to answer the door again.
I open the door to see Vero, Marc-Andre and a large ‘Me to You’ Grey Bear Teddy.
“This is for you Gill to cuddle on the cold winter nights, I know he won’t replace Tyler but he can look after you.” Vero hands him to me and gives me a big hug.
“I have missed you so much Gill, please don’t ever shut me out like that again, you are one of my best friends and I have hated not being able to help you.”
“Thanks V, I am sorry for shutting you out, I know it was wrong.”
I sat the big teddy on the stairs and he looked adorable, he stood about 4.5 feet tall and wore a lilac jumper with the words ‘Always Friends’ sown into the front of it.
Soon everyone had arrived and I was so happy to have them all back in my company again, I had been such an idiot to shut everyone out, especially Lorna, V and Clair, I have missed them so much.
I went into the kitchen and when no one was looking I sent Tyler a text telling him that everyone was here. I poured myself a glass of wine and heard the basement door open. He managed to make his way over to me without anyone noticing and gave me a quick kiss.
“I am going to knock at the door, let someone else answer it. I will go out the back, I can remember how to get round without being noticed.”
I started laughing to myself when I heard a voice behind me.
“What can you possible be laughing at in an empty kitchen?” Vero asks as she approaches me with an empty wine glass.
“I was just thinking about the last time I had you all round here and I surprised Jordan with the basement.” I answer as I hear the door bell.
“Jordan, can you answer that please?” I ask as he is enters the kitchen right on cue.
“Yeah but you have to open me another bottle of beer as way of repayment.” He jokes as he places his empty bottle down and heads for the door.
“Oh hi TK” I hear a shocked voice come from Jordan.
“Hey Staalzy, how’s it going?” Tyler answers sounding cheery and I hear his footsteps on the hall floor.
“Eh yeah things are good and you?” Staalzy answers.
“Good, why do you look like a stunned rabbit caught in the cars headlights, you invited me here didn’t you?” By this time they were both in the kitchen and I was trying to carry on with my conversation with Vero and I noticed Jordan shaking his head as if snapping out of his state of shock.
“Sorry I am just surprised to see you here, it is great that you have decided to come, we have all missed you mate.” Jordan gives him a manly hug and I see Tyler give me a sly smile behind both Jordans and Vero’s back.
I refill my glass of wine and head to the living room with Vero so that we can sit with everyone else. Vero sits down on Marc-Andres knee and I sit down at the piano as there are no seats left. Moments later Jordan and Tyler come through and I avoid eye contact with Tyler so that no one suspects anything.
Jordan sits down on the rug in the middle of the floor and Tyler looks about unsure of where to go. I eventually make eye contact with him giving him a little nod as if to say to come to me.
He came and stood behind me putting his arms around my shoulders, I looked around the room, many people not noticing but there were a few gasps and shocked faces. Suddenly Max turned round when he saw the look on Vero’s face.
“Tyler what are you doing?” He asks almost angry getting up from his seat.
“I am giving my girlfriend a hug Max, is that alright with you?” Tyler replies as he sits down beside me on the stool.
“Do you think after the way you treated her that you can come back in here and act like nothing has happened, you broke her heart for fuck sake. You are my friend TK but so is Gill and I hate the thought of you hurting her.” His accent is adorable and concern strongly evident in his voice, Max tries to be the hard man but he really is just a big softy.
I got up and walked towards Max as he strides across my large room and as I reach him I place my hands on his shoulders.
“Please calm down Max. Thank you for your concern, I really appreciate it.
“Tyler and I spent hours yesterday and again today talking and shouting at each other, trying to work through what happened.” I explained as I look around the room. “I am never going to forget how he made me feel, how my heart has been broken ever since that night he came back from Sweden but I know now that he did what he did because he thought in the long term it was the right thing to do. He knows now that was not the case.
“We both love each other so much and have been so lost without one and other so we have decided to give our relationship another try, we are going to work at it together and see if we can make things work this time.
“I realise a lot of you will probably not agree with what we are doing but the love we share is to strong just to give up on and I would really appreciate if you could all support us.
“We are both really sorry for shutting you all out over the last month and we will do what we can to it make it up to you all.”
I looked back at Max, my hands still on his shoulders.
“I guess I just don’t really understand Gill, I have never had someone look at me the way you look at Tyler and I guess in a way I am jealous. If you both want to try again I for one will support you.” He leaned forward pulling me into a hug.
“Right enough of this, lets get this party started.” Max pulls away and turns to the guys.
“Gill I better not stay as I have left Eric alone in my house and since he has come to visit I actually better spend some time with him.” I hear Jordan speak to me as he gets up from the floor.
“Why didn’t you bring him with you?” I ask looking at him confused.
“He was not invited.” He answers sounding serious.
Without saying anything more I reach into his pocket of his jeans and take out his phone, I scroll down his call list until I find Eric.
“Hey Bro, what’s up?” He answers sounding exactly like Jordan.
“Eric its Gill, I am one of Jordans friends and all of the team are at my house having a party just now. Would you like to come?” I ask.
“That would be amazing, thanks Gill, see you soon.”
The rest of the party went well, it was so good to be in everyone’s company again, I had missed them all so much. It was also unbelievable how much Eric and Jordan were alike I can’t wait to meet the other two.
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We spent the next few hours talking, discussing what we had been doing the last month with both of us admitting that we had shut our friends out, I decided to be fairly honest with him about the pain that I had been in but didn’t go into to much detail so that I could spare him the guilt that I knew he already felt and I definitely did not tell him about the nightmares.
“Why don’t I phone Jordan and tell him to invite everyone round, we don’t need to tell them about us yet, it can be a surprise when they get here.”
“That would be great hunny you are a star.”
I went to the kitchen counter to pick up my phone and I dialed Jordan’s number, he picked up after 2 rings.
“Hey Gill, good to hear from you. How are you?” He asks in his usually bubbly voice.
“I am not too bad thanks. I have decided it is time to get out of this rut that I am in and invite everyone round this afternoon, I miss all you guys. Are you free?” I ask trying not to sound to happy.
“Yeah of course I am free especially for you, what time do you want me round?”
“Any time Jordan, could you please phone the guys? I will phone Vero, Lorna and Clair.”
“Yeah of course, do you want me to call TK?” He asks as his tone of voice changes.
“Yep, he is part of the team and we can’t avoid each other forever.”
“Ok cool, he probably won’t come, he never does anything any more and we miss him. How did your talk go with him last night? I was not sure whether to leave you or not.”
“There was a lot of shouting going on, we both got a lot of things of our chest but that’s about it.”
“Ok Gill, I will talk to you more soon, I will get to phoning everyone and will see you in a couple of hours.”
Next I phoned Lorna.
“Hey Gill, it is good to hear from you.”
“Thanks Lorna, do you and Sid fancy coming round for a while today? I have asked Jordan to ask everyone.”
“Oh that would be great, I am so excited. See you soon.”
Good, no questions means no lies I thought as I hung up the phone.
Next I phoned Vero.
“Hey Lovely how are you?” She answers the phone sounding as cheery as always.
“Hey V, I am ok thanks how are you? Would you and Marc-Andre like to come round today? I have asked Jordan to ask all the team.”
“We would love too, we have missed you so much Gill, I can’t wait to see you.”
We finished up the conversation and lastly I phoned Clair having pretty much a word for word conversation with her as I had had with Vero only moments before.
Shortly after Tylers phone rang.
“Hey Staalzy, what is up?” He answered trying to sound solemn.
“I don’t know, it probably is not a good idea, I don’t want to ruin it.” He smiled at me when he was not talking. It was amusing only hearing one side of the conversation although I could only imagine what Jordan was saying to him.
“I miss you guys too, I might come down for a while later, I’ll see. See ya later, have fun.”
We sat talking for a while and soon it is was time for everyone arriving, we decided that Tyler had better hide until everyone arrived so he locked himself in the basement and I said I would text him when it was safe to come up.
Many of the guys started arriving helping themselves to bottles of beer out of the fridge and telling me they were so pleased to see me, it felt good to be in their company again.
Soon Jordan arrived giving me a big hug as soon as he saw me.
“Don’t you ever do that to me again” He says as he held me close to him.
“I have missed you too Jordan” I laugh as I pull away from him.
“Go and get yourself a drink.” I say as I walk off to answer the door again.
I open the door to see Vero, Marc-Andre and a large ‘Me to You’ Grey Bear Teddy.
“This is for you Gill to cuddle on the cold winter nights, I know he won’t replace Tyler but he can look after you.” Vero hands him to me and gives me a big hug.
“I have missed you so much Gill, please don’t ever shut me out like that again, you are one of my best friends and I have hated not being able to help you.”
“Thanks V, I am sorry for shutting you out, I know it was wrong.”
I sat the big teddy on the stairs and he looked adorable, he stood about 4.5 feet tall and wore a lilac jumper with the words ‘Always Friends’ sown into the front of it.
Soon everyone had arrived and I was so happy to have them all back in my company again, I had been such an idiot to shut everyone out, especially Lorna, V and Clair, I have missed them so much.
I went into the kitchen and when no one was looking I sent Tyler a text telling him that everyone was here. I poured myself a glass of wine and heard the basement door open. He managed to make his way over to me without anyone noticing and gave me a quick kiss.
“I am going to knock at the door, let someone else answer it. I will go out the back, I can remember how to get round without being noticed.”
I started laughing to myself when I heard a voice behind me.
“What can you possible be laughing at in an empty kitchen?” Vero asks as she approaches me with an empty wine glass.
“I was just thinking about the last time I had you all round here and I surprised Jordan with the basement.” I answer as I hear the door bell.
“Jordan, can you answer that please?” I ask as he is enters the kitchen right on cue.
“Yeah but you have to open me another bottle of beer as way of repayment.” He jokes as he places his empty bottle down and heads for the door.
“Oh hi TK” I hear a shocked voice come from Jordan.
“Hey Staalzy, how’s it going?” Tyler answers sounding cheery and I hear his footsteps on the hall floor.
“Eh yeah things are good and you?” Staalzy answers.
“Good, why do you look like a stunned rabbit caught in the cars headlights, you invited me here didn’t you?” By this time they were both in the kitchen and I was trying to carry on with my conversation with Vero and I noticed Jordan shaking his head as if snapping out of his state of shock.
“Sorry I am just surprised to see you here, it is great that you have decided to come, we have all missed you mate.” Jordan gives him a manly hug and I see Tyler give me a sly smile behind both Jordans and Vero’s back.
I refill my glass of wine and head to the living room with Vero so that we can sit with everyone else. Vero sits down on Marc-Andres knee and I sit down at the piano as there are no seats left. Moments later Jordan and Tyler come through and I avoid eye contact with Tyler so that no one suspects anything.
Jordan sits down on the rug in the middle of the floor and Tyler looks about unsure of where to go. I eventually make eye contact with him giving him a little nod as if to say to come to me.
He came and stood behind me putting his arms around my shoulders, I looked around the room, many people not noticing but there were a few gasps and shocked faces. Suddenly Max turned round when he saw the look on Vero’s face.
“Tyler what are you doing?” He asks almost angry getting up from his seat.
“I am giving my girlfriend a hug Max, is that alright with you?” Tyler replies as he sits down beside me on the stool.
“Do you think after the way you treated her that you can come back in here and act like nothing has happened, you broke her heart for fuck sake. You are my friend TK but so is Gill and I hate the thought of you hurting her.” His accent is adorable and concern strongly evident in his voice, Max tries to be the hard man but he really is just a big softy.
I got up and walked towards Max as he strides across my large room and as I reach him I place my hands on his shoulders.
“Please calm down Max. Thank you for your concern, I really appreciate it.
“Tyler and I spent hours yesterday and again today talking and shouting at each other, trying to work through what happened.” I explained as I look around the room. “I am never going to forget how he made me feel, how my heart has been broken ever since that night he came back from Sweden but I know now that he did what he did because he thought in the long term it was the right thing to do. He knows now that was not the case.
“We both love each other so much and have been so lost without one and other so we have decided to give our relationship another try, we are going to work at it together and see if we can make things work this time.
“I realise a lot of you will probably not agree with what we are doing but the love we share is to strong just to give up on and I would really appreciate if you could all support us.
“We are both really sorry for shutting you all out over the last month and we will do what we can to it make it up to you all.”
I looked back at Max, my hands still on his shoulders.
“I guess I just don’t really understand Gill, I have never had someone look at me the way you look at Tyler and I guess in a way I am jealous. If you both want to try again I for one will support you.” He leaned forward pulling me into a hug.
“Right enough of this, lets get this party started.” Max pulls away and turns to the guys.
“Gill I better not stay as I have left Eric alone in my house and since he has come to visit I actually better spend some time with him.” I hear Jordan speak to me as he gets up from the floor.
“Why didn’t you bring him with you?” I ask looking at him confused.
“He was not invited.” He answers sounding serious.
Without saying anything more I reach into his pocket of his jeans and take out his phone, I scroll down his call list until I find Eric.
“Hey Bro, what’s up?” He answers sounding exactly like Jordan.
“Eric its Gill, I am one of Jordans friends and all of the team are at my house having a party just now. Would you like to come?” I ask.
“That would be amazing, thanks Gill, see you soon.”
The rest of the party went well, it was so good to be in everyone’s company again, I had missed them all so much. It was also unbelievable how much Eric and Jordan were alike I can’t wait to meet the other two.
Monday, 30 November 2009
Chapter 33
Sorry for the long wait folks but the wait is now over, hope the chapter was worth the wait...?
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I awoke the next morning still wrapped in Tylers arms and I actually felt refreshed after a very good nights sleep. I managed to get out of his arms without waking him and went for my morning run, when I returned and went to my room to go for a shower Tyler was awake.
“Morning hunny, did you sleep well?” He smiles as he lies on his back, the sheets sitting just above his waist band.
The butterflies in my tummy danced and I got shivers down my spine hearing him call me hunny again. It was a feeling that I had not felt since before he went to Sweden.
‘I still have no idea what to do, should I trust my instinct and get back with him?’
“Good Morning. I slept well thanks and you? Do you want to come for a swim?” I asked as I tried so hard not to stare at him, he looked amazing and I just wanted to lie back down beside, hold him close and tell him everything was ok.
“I had a great sleep thanks. Yeah I will come with you, I have been practising so I should be able to keep up with you now.” He smiles at me as he gets up leaning in to give me a kiss on his way past but I turned away.
I showered quickly and headed down to the pool making a start to my normal routine when Tyler came and joined me. It was clear that he had been practising and was looking much stronger in his swimming but he still stopped at about 70 lengths.
“What do you want for breakfast?” I ask him as I climb out of the water making sure not to make eye contact with him.
“Can I have some bacon and eggs etc. please? I will help to make it.” He asks climbing out of the pool and moving to put his arms around me but I quickly move before he gets the chance too.
‘I know I can’t avoid this forever.’
I went for a shower and left it on for Tyler to go in after me, although I have more shower in the house that is really the only one that is used and like me Tyler likes the water to be scalding hot.
Making a start on breakfast I think to myself about what I want to do knowing that I can’t lead Tyler on any longer. I must have got lost in my thought because before I knew what was happening Tylers arms were around my waist and he was holding me close to him. I could feel his strong chest against my back, his heart beating fast and the warmth of his breath on my face. Those butterflies insisted on dancing even though I prayed they wouldn’t.
“Let go Tyler” I warned him.
“No Gill it is about time you stopped running from me.” He turned me round to face him and switched the cooker off removing the pans from the hot hobs.
“I love you with all my heart and I am so sorry for all the hurt that I have caused and I have told you that I will make it up to you somehow.
“What else do you want me to say Gill. I am not going to get down on my knees and beg for forgiveness, I know I was wrong and I admit that but I am not going to keep saying it…”
His voice was raised and his eyes were red from anger but I still could not find the right words to say so I just lowered my head and continued to say nothing.
“That’s it Gill, I have had enough.”
He stormed off and instead of leaving like I expected him to he went up the stairs. I sat down on the floor and cried, I must have sat there for about half an hour holding my knees to my chest and he was still up there so I decided to go and see what he was doing and try to talk to him.
“What are you doing Tyler?” I ask as I enter my bedroom to find him looking out some of his clothes and other items that he still had here.
“I am getting my things together Gill, I can’t take this any more. I am hurting too you know. I thought last night that we had made a breakthrough but now you are throwing it back in my face and I can’t handle it.” His eyes were red from anger and I knew that the pain he was feeling was too much to bear.
I sat down beside him on the floor and held his face in my hands knowing that I could not let this continue any longer.
“Please don’t leave Tyler, I love you more than words could possibly explain and I can’t face life without you in it.
“Before I met you I was so independent, I didn’t need anyone in my life but I let you in and I got used to having you with me. Since the day you left me I have felt empty, as if someone had torn my heart out and left it to rot. I can’t feel like that forever more. Please come back to me again Tyler, I am so sorry.”
He sat in silence for a moment looking into my eyes searching for emotions and the truth about my feelings.
“I love you Tyler, please let’s try and make this work.” I said again as if trying to reassure him.
“Oh Gill, I love you too, I know we can get through this. I am so very sorry, I promise to never ever do that to you again, I promise I will never hurt you.” He leaned in pulling me into a big hug, we held each other so close enjoying the feeling of each other again. I took a deep breath and exhaled allowing my body to relax into him.
Finally we pulled away and looked at each other again, I could see he was unsure of what to do so I leaned in and kissed him deeply on the lips, my tongue requesting entry into his mouth. I savoured his taste wanting to make up for so much lost time.
We eventually pulled away again and Tyler looked at me with his cheeky smile and it finally looked just how I remembered it.
“What?” I asked smiling back at him.
“Can we have breakfast now hunny I am so hungry?”
I laughed taking a hold of him hand and standing up to head back down to the kitchen.
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I awoke the next morning still wrapped in Tylers arms and I actually felt refreshed after a very good nights sleep. I managed to get out of his arms without waking him and went for my morning run, when I returned and went to my room to go for a shower Tyler was awake.
“Morning hunny, did you sleep well?” He smiles as he lies on his back, the sheets sitting just above his waist band.
The butterflies in my tummy danced and I got shivers down my spine hearing him call me hunny again. It was a feeling that I had not felt since before he went to Sweden.
‘I still have no idea what to do, should I trust my instinct and get back with him?’
“Good Morning. I slept well thanks and you? Do you want to come for a swim?” I asked as I tried so hard not to stare at him, he looked amazing and I just wanted to lie back down beside, hold him close and tell him everything was ok.
“I had a great sleep thanks. Yeah I will come with you, I have been practising so I should be able to keep up with you now.” He smiles at me as he gets up leaning in to give me a kiss on his way past but I turned away.
I showered quickly and headed down to the pool making a start to my normal routine when Tyler came and joined me. It was clear that he had been practising and was looking much stronger in his swimming but he still stopped at about 70 lengths.
“What do you want for breakfast?” I ask him as I climb out of the water making sure not to make eye contact with him.
“Can I have some bacon and eggs etc. please? I will help to make it.” He asks climbing out of the pool and moving to put his arms around me but I quickly move before he gets the chance too.
‘I know I can’t avoid this forever.’
I went for a shower and left it on for Tyler to go in after me, although I have more shower in the house that is really the only one that is used and like me Tyler likes the water to be scalding hot.
Making a start on breakfast I think to myself about what I want to do knowing that I can’t lead Tyler on any longer. I must have got lost in my thought because before I knew what was happening Tylers arms were around my waist and he was holding me close to him. I could feel his strong chest against my back, his heart beating fast and the warmth of his breath on my face. Those butterflies insisted on dancing even though I prayed they wouldn’t.
“Let go Tyler” I warned him.
“No Gill it is about time you stopped running from me.” He turned me round to face him and switched the cooker off removing the pans from the hot hobs.
“I love you with all my heart and I am so sorry for all the hurt that I have caused and I have told you that I will make it up to you somehow.
“What else do you want me to say Gill. I am not going to get down on my knees and beg for forgiveness, I know I was wrong and I admit that but I am not going to keep saying it…”
His voice was raised and his eyes were red from anger but I still could not find the right words to say so I just lowered my head and continued to say nothing.
“That’s it Gill, I have had enough.”
He stormed off and instead of leaving like I expected him to he went up the stairs. I sat down on the floor and cried, I must have sat there for about half an hour holding my knees to my chest and he was still up there so I decided to go and see what he was doing and try to talk to him.
“What are you doing Tyler?” I ask as I enter my bedroom to find him looking out some of his clothes and other items that he still had here.
“I am getting my things together Gill, I can’t take this any more. I am hurting too you know. I thought last night that we had made a breakthrough but now you are throwing it back in my face and I can’t handle it.” His eyes were red from anger and I knew that the pain he was feeling was too much to bear.
I sat down beside him on the floor and held his face in my hands knowing that I could not let this continue any longer.
“Please don’t leave Tyler, I love you more than words could possibly explain and I can’t face life without you in it.
“Before I met you I was so independent, I didn’t need anyone in my life but I let you in and I got used to having you with me. Since the day you left me I have felt empty, as if someone had torn my heart out and left it to rot. I can’t feel like that forever more. Please come back to me again Tyler, I am so sorry.”
He sat in silence for a moment looking into my eyes searching for emotions and the truth about my feelings.
“I love you Tyler, please let’s try and make this work.” I said again as if trying to reassure him.
“Oh Gill, I love you too, I know we can get through this. I am so very sorry, I promise to never ever do that to you again, I promise I will never hurt you.” He leaned in pulling me into a big hug, we held each other so close enjoying the feeling of each other again. I took a deep breath and exhaled allowing my body to relax into him.
Finally we pulled away and looked at each other again, I could see he was unsure of what to do so I leaned in and kissed him deeply on the lips, my tongue requesting entry into his mouth. I savoured his taste wanting to make up for so much lost time.
We eventually pulled away again and Tyler looked at me with his cheeky smile and it finally looked just how I remembered it.
“What?” I asked smiling back at him.
“Can we have breakfast now hunny I am so hungry?”
I laughed taking a hold of him hand and standing up to head back down to the kitchen.
Monday, 9 November 2009
So sorry!!
Hey everyone, just wanted to say so sorry that I have not updated in so long. Been so busy getting ready for the baby arriving (baby is a little boy which we are very excited about - if you want to see the scan pictures feel free to add me on Facebook!) and our flat is for sale so that has been taking up a lot of time. Hoping it will be sold any day now and we will be able to put in an offer for a lovely house that we have seen.
Work has also been so busy and I have therefore been so tired all the time.
So please be patient for a little while longer and I promise to get a chapter posted soon.
Hope you are all well and enjoying watching the Pens, the games are always on in the middle of the night here because there is such a big time difference and there is only ever a couple of games from each team on a month but I am trying to watch as many games as I can.
Take care everyone and talk to you soon xxxx
Work has also been so busy and I have therefore been so tired all the time.
So please be patient for a little while longer and I promise to get a chapter posted soon.
Hope you are all well and enjoying watching the Pens, the games are always on in the middle of the night here because there is such a big time difference and there is only ever a couple of games from each team on a month but I am trying to watch as many games as I can.
Take care everyone and talk to you soon xxxx
Saturday, 10 October 2009
Chapter 32
Tyler appeared about half an hour after I got home letting himself in and heading straight to the kitchen with the food.
“I opted for Italian, is that ok? I went to that place that we love so much.”
I looked at him dishing out the food and getting drinks from the fridge carrying on as if everything was ok, I allowed it to pass for the moment and sat down to eat.
‘I love this guy so much, do I really want to take the chance and let him back into my life? On the other hand do I really want to let him go and risk losing him forever?’
I sat staring at him as he ate his pasta and he looked up at me when he noticed giving me that infectious smile I had missed so much.
“What?” He asks with a mouth full of food.
“Nothing” I answer trying so hard not to smile back at him.
We wash up the little amount of dishes that we have used and then head to the living room.
“Why did you not open the envelope I left you?” He asks as he picks it up.
“I couldn’t bring myself to see what was in it.”
He put it in his jacket pocket and then threw his jacket over the arm of the sofa.
“Maybe I will give you it back again if we can ever get through this.”
I sat down at the piano knowing that if I sat playing we would not have to talk, I didn’t know what else to say and I didn’t know where I want to go from here. I keep hearing Mario’s words over and over again.
‘What do I do now? Do I follow my heart as Mario suggested?’
“Can you sing something please Gill?” He asks looking hopeful after we had been sitting for a while.
“I miss hearing you sing, the last memory I have of hearing you sing is the night that I left.”
“What would you like to hear?” I answer, too tired to disagree.
“Anything will do.”
I think about it for a few moments trying to find something with a lot of meaning, something that might start to explain how I am feeling because I just can’t seem to find the right words to express it.
I eventually chose ‘What Do I Do With My Heart’ by The Eagles and the lyrics are as follows:
You don't have to say a word
I can see it in your eyes
I know what you want to say
It's so hard to say goodbye
I can hold back my tears
And try to be strong
While our love is falling apart
I know what I'll say
If you walk away
But what do I do
What do I do with my heart?
I'm not gonna say a word
I know I can't change your mind
You know where you need to go
I know I'll be left behind
I won't hold you back
I won't stand in your way
If you need to make a new start
But I still want to know
When my arms let you go
What do I do
What do I do with my heart?
Oh, girl, don't you remember?
It was not so long ago
We were making plans for two
Just me and you
Now you tell me that you've found somebody
Someone who loves you better
No one could ever love you
The way I do
Tell me you're not leaving now
Tell me you're not leaving
Tell me that you're gonna stay
Please say you'll stay with me, baby
Tell me that you love me still
Say you love me still
For this and this alone I pray
Fall down on my knees and pray
I'll do anything
Yes, I would
To save what we have
To keep you by my side
I'll love you 'til death do us part
But what do I do
What do I do
When I'm still missing you?
What do I do
What do I do with my heart?
I closed the piano lid and sat there with my eyes closed, tears beginning to fall again. After a moment I felt Tylers arms wrap around my shoulders, I took a deep breath taking in that familiar scent that I had missed so much and decided not to push him away.
“I am so so sorry Gill, please let me try to mend your broken heart.” His voice was barely above a whisper and I could tell he too was crying again.
“I am tired Tyler, lets go to bed.” I answered as I got up from the piano stool and turned to look at him, his face confused. “Stay with me tonight, I can’t promise how I will feel in the morning but I want you to hold me. I don’t think I have had a proper night sleep since I was last in your arms.”
I got ready for bed deciding to wear cosy pyjamas with little polar bears all over them and Tyler stripped down to his boxer shorts. We climbed into bed and quickly fell fast asleep without saying anything further to each other.
“I opted for Italian, is that ok? I went to that place that we love so much.”
I looked at him dishing out the food and getting drinks from the fridge carrying on as if everything was ok, I allowed it to pass for the moment and sat down to eat.
‘I love this guy so much, do I really want to take the chance and let him back into my life? On the other hand do I really want to let him go and risk losing him forever?’
I sat staring at him as he ate his pasta and he looked up at me when he noticed giving me that infectious smile I had missed so much.
“What?” He asks with a mouth full of food.
“Nothing” I answer trying so hard not to smile back at him.
We wash up the little amount of dishes that we have used and then head to the living room.
“Why did you not open the envelope I left you?” He asks as he picks it up.
“I couldn’t bring myself to see what was in it.”
He put it in his jacket pocket and then threw his jacket over the arm of the sofa.
“Maybe I will give you it back again if we can ever get through this.”
I sat down at the piano knowing that if I sat playing we would not have to talk, I didn’t know what else to say and I didn’t know where I want to go from here. I keep hearing Mario’s words over and over again.
‘What do I do now? Do I follow my heart as Mario suggested?’
“Can you sing something please Gill?” He asks looking hopeful after we had been sitting for a while.
“I miss hearing you sing, the last memory I have of hearing you sing is the night that I left.”
“What would you like to hear?” I answer, too tired to disagree.
“Anything will do.”
I think about it for a few moments trying to find something with a lot of meaning, something that might start to explain how I am feeling because I just can’t seem to find the right words to express it.
I eventually chose ‘What Do I Do With My Heart’ by The Eagles and the lyrics are as follows:
You don't have to say a word
I can see it in your eyes
I know what you want to say
It's so hard to say goodbye
I can hold back my tears
And try to be strong
While our love is falling apart
I know what I'll say
If you walk away
But what do I do
What do I do with my heart?
I'm not gonna say a word
I know I can't change your mind
You know where you need to go
I know I'll be left behind
I won't hold you back
I won't stand in your way
If you need to make a new start
But I still want to know
When my arms let you go
What do I do
What do I do with my heart?
Oh, girl, don't you remember?
It was not so long ago
We were making plans for two
Just me and you
Now you tell me that you've found somebody
Someone who loves you better
No one could ever love you
The way I do
Tell me you're not leaving now
Tell me you're not leaving
Tell me that you're gonna stay
Please say you'll stay with me, baby
Tell me that you love me still
Say you love me still
For this and this alone I pray
Fall down on my knees and pray
I'll do anything
Yes, I would
To save what we have
To keep you by my side
I'll love you 'til death do us part
But what do I do
What do I do
When I'm still missing you?
What do I do
What do I do with my heart?
I closed the piano lid and sat there with my eyes closed, tears beginning to fall again. After a moment I felt Tylers arms wrap around my shoulders, I took a deep breath taking in that familiar scent that I had missed so much and decided not to push him away.
“I am so so sorry Gill, please let me try to mend your broken heart.” His voice was barely above a whisper and I could tell he too was crying again.
“I am tired Tyler, lets go to bed.” I answered as I got up from the piano stool and turned to look at him, his face confused. “Stay with me tonight, I can’t promise how I will feel in the morning but I want you to hold me. I don’t think I have had a proper night sleep since I was last in your arms.”
I got ready for bed deciding to wear cosy pyjamas with little polar bears all over them and Tyler stripped down to his boxer shorts. We climbed into bed and quickly fell fast asleep without saying anything further to each other.
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