Thanks for all your comments, just a short chapter and I will try and post in a few days time.
(TKs prov)
‘After I closed the door to Gills house I sat down on the doorstep, hot tears ran down my face and I heard her start to play the piano, she sang a song that I did not know and the lyrics made me feel like such an idiot. She has such a beautiful singing voice – she is like an angel. Before I met Gill I never really paid any attention to the words of a song but she does, she really listens to them and remembers songs that have a lot of meaning and she has got me doing the same thing.
Maybe I am being selfish finishing with her but it hurt so much being away from her and I missed her more than I could ever explain, it is better to do it now rather than having her hate me in the long run for never being there for her.
Once she finished the song I heard her sobbing, in fact she was doing more than sobbing, she was crying uncontrollably and I wanted to go back in and tell her it was ok but I cant, I need to walk away.
I will text Jordan and see if he will go round and make sure she is ok, I know I can trust him with her, they have built up a good friendship over the last couple of months.
I got up and sat in my car, the hot tears still rolling down my face, burning my cheeks before they fall to my lips leaving the taste of salt lingering – am I really making the right choice?
As drove home I just felt empty, like everything good in my life was gone and it was my fault entirely. I don’t want to live my life without Gill, god I was even thinking about the day we get married and have children but the way I felt in Sweden was horrible, I cant even describe the feeling properly but I know I never want to feel it again and I never want Gill to feel it either. I know that if their were children I would feel even worse. It has to be this way, this is for the best.
Who am I trying to convince, I am such an idiot. I have just thrown away the best thing that has ever happened to me and I have no way of getting it back...’
Monday, 27 July 2009
Wednesday, 22 July 2009
Chapter 25
The pens won there first game against the Sens with Tyler scoring the first goal of the season.
The next few days passed in a blur and it was soon time for Tyler to come home, I was so relieved as I had spent the last few days missing him like crazy and counting down the hours until he came home.
I heard the door open and I almost ran to him, pulling him into my arms and holding him tight but he just didn’t seem himself, he was distant almost, he barely even hugged me back before he let go.
“Is everything ok Tyler?”
“Fine” I got his one word answer then he walked off without kissing me or saying anything further.
‘I am really worried, I have such a bad feeling.’
I sat down in the living room and picked up my book again unable to concentrate enough to read any of the words on the page when eventually Tyler came and joined me but instead of sitting curled up to me like normal he sat at the opposite end of the room.
“Gill we need to talk.” He stated as he looked at anything but me as he fingers started picking apart the cushion that he had picked up so I knew straight away that he was nervous.
“You are worrying me Tyler, I don’t like this.” I wanted to get up and sit beside him but I couldn’t seem to find the strength to move.
“I think we should break up…”
I was completely stunned, I couldn’t bring myself to comprehend what he had said to me. My eyes were stinging as I tried to hold back the tears, I felt physically sick.
“I missed you so much when we were away. I love you so much more than I ever bargained for, more than I ever knew was possible but it is just too hard Gill. I can’t feel the way I did in Sweden every time I go away. It hurts too much to be away from you so I think it is best just to end things now before it gets harder.”
“You are making no sense Tyler.”
“Gill just stop it” he interrupts before I get a chance to say anything further, his voice hard and cold. “I can’t do this to you, it is easier this way. I have to go I will get my things another time.”
As he left the room he placed an envelope down on the coffee table then left the house without saying anything further.
‘I can’t believe he has done this to me.’
I went to my piano and without thinking of a song my fingers immediately started playing ‘Unbreak My Heart’ by Toni Braxton. The lyrics are as follows:
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry that tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my
Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
I broke down in tears just as I finished the song, I cried for hours feeling my heart breaking further each second. I sat on the floor leaning against the wall feeling cold and so alone...
The next few days passed in a blur and it was soon time for Tyler to come home, I was so relieved as I had spent the last few days missing him like crazy and counting down the hours until he came home.
I heard the door open and I almost ran to him, pulling him into my arms and holding him tight but he just didn’t seem himself, he was distant almost, he barely even hugged me back before he let go.
“Is everything ok Tyler?”
“Fine” I got his one word answer then he walked off without kissing me or saying anything further.
‘I am really worried, I have such a bad feeling.’
I sat down in the living room and picked up my book again unable to concentrate enough to read any of the words on the page when eventually Tyler came and joined me but instead of sitting curled up to me like normal he sat at the opposite end of the room.
“Gill we need to talk.” He stated as he looked at anything but me as he fingers started picking apart the cushion that he had picked up so I knew straight away that he was nervous.
“You are worrying me Tyler, I don’t like this.” I wanted to get up and sit beside him but I couldn’t seem to find the strength to move.
“I think we should break up…”
I was completely stunned, I couldn’t bring myself to comprehend what he had said to me. My eyes were stinging as I tried to hold back the tears, I felt physically sick.
“I missed you so much when we were away. I love you so much more than I ever bargained for, more than I ever knew was possible but it is just too hard Gill. I can’t feel the way I did in Sweden every time I go away. It hurts too much to be away from you so I think it is best just to end things now before it gets harder.”
“You are making no sense Tyler.”
“Gill just stop it” he interrupts before I get a chance to say anything further, his voice hard and cold. “I can’t do this to you, it is easier this way. I have to go I will get my things another time.”
As he left the room he placed an envelope down on the coffee table then left the house without saying anything further.
‘I can’t believe he has done this to me.’
I went to my piano and without thinking of a song my fingers immediately started playing ‘Unbreak My Heart’ by Toni Braxton. The lyrics are as follows:
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry that tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my
Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
I broke down in tears just as I finished the song, I cried for hours feeling my heart breaking further each second. I sat on the floor leaning against the wall feeling cold and so alone...
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
Chapter 24
The next morning Vero, Clair and I went for breakfast and then headed out shopping. The day past so quickly with us all spending far too much money.
“Right girls we have somewhere to be, let’s go.”
“Where are we going?” They ask in unison.
“It is a surprise.” Thankfully they never asked any more questions.
We soon arrive at the beauty parlour that I picked out.
“They are going to do our hair, make-up and nails.”
“Wow, Gill you are amazing. Thank you.”
We all got dolled up and couldn’t wait to get back to the hotel to put our lovely dresses on that we had bought today.
Just as I got back to my hotel room my mobile phone started ringing and once again I was happy to see that it was Tyler.
“Hey Gorgeous”
“Hey hunny”
We chatted for an hour or so about what we had been doing for the day and we wished each other luck for tonight. Tyler’s good luck is for the friendly game that has been organised and mine for possibly winning the publishers award and for presenting two awards to my favourite authors James Patterson and Patricia Cornwell.
“Right gorgeous, I need to go and put my lovely dress on before the girls get here. Love you lots and will talk to you tomorrow.”
“Remember to send a picture of you all. Love you too hunny. Bye.”
I put on my dress and I looked at myself in the mirror.
‘I wish Tyler was here to see me’.
The dress that we chose for me was mid-calf length, fitted in all the right areas and floated out at the bottom. It was silver silk, my shawl was also made from silver silk with diamanté's scattered on it and it shimmered pink, my shoes and bag were just simple and they were a darker shade of silver.
Knock, knock.
The knock at the door signalled that Clair and Vero were here.
I opened up and immediately smiled at them. “You both look wonderful, come in. TK has requested that we take a photo and send it over to them.”
“You too look stunning Gill. I bet Tyler wishes he was here with you.”
I looked at them with almost sad eyes. “I wish he was here too, I miss him so much more than I could have imagined but I know that it is something I have to get used too.”
“You will get used to it, it took us time to adjust too but we are all going through the same thing so we just need to support each other and be there for one and other.”
We took a few pictures of us on my camera, one of us all individually and a couple of group photos. I linked my camera up to my laptop and emailed them to Tyler then text him to tell him to check his email. Within minutes all of our phones were ringing.
“Hey Tyler, I take it you got the photos?”
“You girls look amazing. Looking at you makes me miss you so much more.”
“Thanks Tyler, I miss you too and I can’t wait to see you on Sunday. I have taken Monday off so that I can spend some time with you.”
“Great stuff, I can’t wait. I will let you go and have a great night tonight. Love you.”
“You have a good night too, take care.”
We finished up our calls and then headed out to the awards. My company won best publisher of 2008 which I was over the moon about and I got on really well presenting the awards to James Patterson and Patricia Cornwell. I was so pleased that they were indeed lovely people and they both gave me signed limited edition books for my collection.
We all had such a good night and got back to the hotel at about 0200 so we crashed out immediately.
The next day we went home about midday and we all promised each other we would go away together again soon.
“Right girls we have somewhere to be, let’s go.”
“Where are we going?” They ask in unison.
“It is a surprise.” Thankfully they never asked any more questions.
We soon arrive at the beauty parlour that I picked out.
“They are going to do our hair, make-up and nails.”
“Wow, Gill you are amazing. Thank you.”
We all got dolled up and couldn’t wait to get back to the hotel to put our lovely dresses on that we had bought today.
Just as I got back to my hotel room my mobile phone started ringing and once again I was happy to see that it was Tyler.
“Hey Gorgeous”
“Hey hunny”
We chatted for an hour or so about what we had been doing for the day and we wished each other luck for tonight. Tyler’s good luck is for the friendly game that has been organised and mine for possibly winning the publishers award and for presenting two awards to my favourite authors James Patterson and Patricia Cornwell.
“Right gorgeous, I need to go and put my lovely dress on before the girls get here. Love you lots and will talk to you tomorrow.”
“Remember to send a picture of you all. Love you too hunny. Bye.”
I put on my dress and I looked at myself in the mirror.
‘I wish Tyler was here to see me’.
The dress that we chose for me was mid-calf length, fitted in all the right areas and floated out at the bottom. It was silver silk, my shawl was also made from silver silk with diamanté's scattered on it and it shimmered pink, my shoes and bag were just simple and they were a darker shade of silver.
Knock, knock.
The knock at the door signalled that Clair and Vero were here.
I opened up and immediately smiled at them. “You both look wonderful, come in. TK has requested that we take a photo and send it over to them.”
“You too look stunning Gill. I bet Tyler wishes he was here with you.”
I looked at them with almost sad eyes. “I wish he was here too, I miss him so much more than I could have imagined but I know that it is something I have to get used too.”
“You will get used to it, it took us time to adjust too but we are all going through the same thing so we just need to support each other and be there for one and other.”
We took a few pictures of us on my camera, one of us all individually and a couple of group photos. I linked my camera up to my laptop and emailed them to Tyler then text him to tell him to check his email. Within minutes all of our phones were ringing.
“Hey Tyler, I take it you got the photos?”
“You girls look amazing. Looking at you makes me miss you so much more.”
“Thanks Tyler, I miss you too and I can’t wait to see you on Sunday. I have taken Monday off so that I can spend some time with you.”
“Great stuff, I can’t wait. I will let you go and have a great night tonight. Love you.”
“You have a good night too, take care.”
We finished up our calls and then headed out to the awards. My company won best publisher of 2008 which I was over the moon about and I got on really well presenting the awards to James Patterson and Patricia Cornwell. I was so pleased that they were indeed lovely people and they both gave me signed limited edition books for my collection.
We all had such a good night and got back to the hotel at about 0200 so we crashed out immediately.
The next day we went home about midday and we all promised each other we would go away together again soon.
Sunday, 12 July 2009
Chapter 23
The next morning I completed my usual routine of running and swimming followed by eating some fruit for breakfast and then heading into the office.
I had my normal meeting with Lorna before doing an hours work and soon it was time for Vero and Clair to arrive.
“Hey girlies how are you both?” I ask as they enter my office and I give each of them a hug.
We chatted for a while when Clair asked if she could see the library like I promised.
“Of course you can, just follow me.”
We got the lift down to the basement and I tell Clair to go in first.
“Wow, now this is my idea of heaven, I love it.”
The only way I can think of describing my library is it is very much like the one that the beast presents to Belle in Disney’s Beauty and the Beast with the high roofs and rows upon rows of books.
“Have you ever written a book Gill?” Clair asks as she looks about her in awe.
“Why would you ask such a strange question? Have you ever written a book Clair?” I reply as I smile at her.
“No but I would love too, however I would have no idea where to start. You have studied English and Publishing so I thought maybe you have tried your hand at writing your own book.”
“I have actually written a few books but I have never had any of them published although I did get a couple of them printed. This is my first attempt at writing, it started off as a fanfic about the Penguins, I wrote it when I was still in Scotland but before I put it to print I changed a few names so that it was less obvious who the characters were.” I took a copy from the shelf and handed it to her.
“It is called American Dream, let me know what you think of it.”
“Thank you so much.
“Why is this section behind glass with locked access?”
“Because it is all First-Editions, signed books or rare copies, all books with a high value that nobody gets to touch. I have never read those copies and never plan too I will just leave them there to gain value.”
We talked for a while longer before heading to the airport to catch our flight. When we arrived at the airport I walked off in a different direction to the other two.
“Hey Gill, you are going the wrong way, the gate is this way.” Vero shouted back at me.
“No, you are going the wrong way, come this way please.” I answered mischievously giving them a cheeky smile.
We approached the private check-in desk when I was greeted by a lady from the airport staff.
“Good afternoon Miss Robertson, your plane is waiting for you and we have all your requirements ready. Your pilot today is Captain Smith and your staff are Zoe and Matt. Do you have you and your friend’s passports?”
I handed my passports over and turned to Clair and Vero who had stunned expressions on their faces, their eyes wide and their mouths open.
“Do you have your passports girls?” I asked as I clicked my fingers in front of their faces breaking them from their trance.
“Yeah sorry” They both answer at the same time.
We complete our check-in and are escorted to my plane. The staff ask us to get seated and fasten our seatbelts and they would bring us refreshments after take off is complete.
“So Gill, why did you not tell us that you had your own plane?” Vero smiles at me.
“I wanted it to be a surprise. I am forever going on business trips and I got to the point that I was so annoyed with the service I was getting that I eventually bought my own plane. I let local schools and guiding associations and the likes use it too and I have also said to Ray to mention to the travel desk that they can use it if they want too. We are all actually heading to Detroit at the same time. I just accidently on purpose forgot to tell Tyler and the guys that they are going on my plane with me.”
After the smooth take off was over the flight staff came out with some food for us and a bottle a wine. We chatted for a while and before we knew it we had arrived in New York.
After we left the airport we got a taxi to the hotel.
“I have a couple of hours work I need to do ladies so how about you come up to my room in about 3 hours and we can head out somewhere to get some food and some more wine?” I asked as we waited to get checked in.
“Sounds good, we shall see you soon.”
Once I reached my room I went for a hot shower allowing myself to spend a bit longer under the water. I love the feeling of steaming hot water running down my skin.
‘I wish Tyler was here with me right now, I miss him already.’
I switched off the shower shortly after and heard my mobile phone ringing as I left the bathroom. I looked at the caller display and smiled to myself when I seen that it was Tyler calling.
“Hey Gorgeous, how are you?” I ask sounding excited to hear his voice.
“Hey hunny I am good thanks how are you?” He answers sounding tired.
“I am good thanks, we arrived in New York about an hour or so ago. You sound tired, I hope jetlag is not going to bother you to much.”
“I hope not, I slept most of the flight so I should be ok. We have just checked into the hotel and it looks nice, I am sharing with Jordan so that is cool. We are just going to nap for a bit then go out and explore. We have a skate tonight then training tomorrow morning before the scavenger hunt and then a friendly game against a local team at night.”
“Sounds like you have a busy time ahead of you, just remember to have fun. I just have a couple of hours work to do and then we are going out for food and will take it from there. Tomorrow we are going shopping and then I have a surprise for the girls, we are all getting our hair and make up done before we head down to the awards ceremony.”
“I hope you have fun too hunny, I am missing you so much already, I will bring you back something nice, something to remind you of Europe.”
“There is no need for that. I miss you too but I am sure the week will pass quickly.”
We chatted for about 30 minutes longer.
“As much as I hate doing this gorgeous I really need to get some work done before the girls come down to the room. Call me again soon, I love you lots.”
“I love you too hunny, bye.”
I spent the next while doing work and got really carried away because I was still in my dressing gown when Vero and Clair knocked on the door.
“Hey sorry girls, come in. I won’t be long. TK phoned and then I must have got so engrossed in my work because time just ran away with me.”
“That’s ok don’t worry. Why don’t you dry your hair and we will look out something for you to wear? How is TK? Marc said they had a good flight and they have a lot planned for the next few days.”
“Thanks. TK said much the same.”
I blow dried my hair and then quickly straightened it, I am lucky enough to have straight hair anyway but if I use the straighteners it shows of the layers slightly better. I got changed into the outfit that the girls had chosen for me so I ended up wearing skinny black jeans, brown knee high stiletto boots and a light brown v-neck fitted jumper with my brown suede cowboy style jacket.
We went out to a lovely restaurant and had the most delicious meal of course accompanied by some wine.
“I started reading your book Gill when you were working this afternoon, I am guessing the female lead is based on you and I think the male is Sid. It is really good and I can’t wait to read more, I want to know if they will eventually get together.”
“I am saying nothing. Once you have finished it I will email you the link to the original fanfic that it was based on because I published it on the internet a while back.”
“Cool.”
We stayed out for a few more drinks before heading back to the hotel. We agreed our time to meet and then all went our separate ways.
I lay in bed reading for a while when I heard my phone beep signalling a new text.
‘Hey hunny, miss you lots but having so much fun. Love you and will talk to you tomorrow.’
‘I am glad you are having fun Tyler. I miss you too, more than words can explain. Love you lots too. Take care xx’
At that I put my book down, switched off my light and quickly fell fast asleep.
I had my normal meeting with Lorna before doing an hours work and soon it was time for Vero and Clair to arrive.
“Hey girlies how are you both?” I ask as they enter my office and I give each of them a hug.
We chatted for a while when Clair asked if she could see the library like I promised.
“Of course you can, just follow me.”
We got the lift down to the basement and I tell Clair to go in first.
“Wow, now this is my idea of heaven, I love it.”
The only way I can think of describing my library is it is very much like the one that the beast presents to Belle in Disney’s Beauty and the Beast with the high roofs and rows upon rows of books.
“Have you ever written a book Gill?” Clair asks as she looks about her in awe.
“Why would you ask such a strange question? Have you ever written a book Clair?” I reply as I smile at her.
“No but I would love too, however I would have no idea where to start. You have studied English and Publishing so I thought maybe you have tried your hand at writing your own book.”
“I have actually written a few books but I have never had any of them published although I did get a couple of them printed. This is my first attempt at writing, it started off as a fanfic about the Penguins, I wrote it when I was still in Scotland but before I put it to print I changed a few names so that it was less obvious who the characters were.” I took a copy from the shelf and handed it to her.
“It is called American Dream, let me know what you think of it.”
“Thank you so much.
“Why is this section behind glass with locked access?”
“Because it is all First-Editions, signed books or rare copies, all books with a high value that nobody gets to touch. I have never read those copies and never plan too I will just leave them there to gain value.”
We talked for a while longer before heading to the airport to catch our flight. When we arrived at the airport I walked off in a different direction to the other two.
“Hey Gill, you are going the wrong way, the gate is this way.” Vero shouted back at me.
“No, you are going the wrong way, come this way please.” I answered mischievously giving them a cheeky smile.
We approached the private check-in desk when I was greeted by a lady from the airport staff.
“Good afternoon Miss Robertson, your plane is waiting for you and we have all your requirements ready. Your pilot today is Captain Smith and your staff are Zoe and Matt. Do you have you and your friend’s passports?”
I handed my passports over and turned to Clair and Vero who had stunned expressions on their faces, their eyes wide and their mouths open.
“Do you have your passports girls?” I asked as I clicked my fingers in front of their faces breaking them from their trance.
“Yeah sorry” They both answer at the same time.
We complete our check-in and are escorted to my plane. The staff ask us to get seated and fasten our seatbelts and they would bring us refreshments after take off is complete.
“So Gill, why did you not tell us that you had your own plane?” Vero smiles at me.
“I wanted it to be a surprise. I am forever going on business trips and I got to the point that I was so annoyed with the service I was getting that I eventually bought my own plane. I let local schools and guiding associations and the likes use it too and I have also said to Ray to mention to the travel desk that they can use it if they want too. We are all actually heading to Detroit at the same time. I just accidently on purpose forgot to tell Tyler and the guys that they are going on my plane with me.”
After the smooth take off was over the flight staff came out with some food for us and a bottle a wine. We chatted for a while and before we knew it we had arrived in New York.
After we left the airport we got a taxi to the hotel.
“I have a couple of hours work I need to do ladies so how about you come up to my room in about 3 hours and we can head out somewhere to get some food and some more wine?” I asked as we waited to get checked in.
“Sounds good, we shall see you soon.”
Once I reached my room I went for a hot shower allowing myself to spend a bit longer under the water. I love the feeling of steaming hot water running down my skin.
‘I wish Tyler was here with me right now, I miss him already.’
I switched off the shower shortly after and heard my mobile phone ringing as I left the bathroom. I looked at the caller display and smiled to myself when I seen that it was Tyler calling.
“Hey Gorgeous, how are you?” I ask sounding excited to hear his voice.
“Hey hunny I am good thanks how are you?” He answers sounding tired.
“I am good thanks, we arrived in New York about an hour or so ago. You sound tired, I hope jetlag is not going to bother you to much.”
“I hope not, I slept most of the flight so I should be ok. We have just checked into the hotel and it looks nice, I am sharing with Jordan so that is cool. We are just going to nap for a bit then go out and explore. We have a skate tonight then training tomorrow morning before the scavenger hunt and then a friendly game against a local team at night.”
“Sounds like you have a busy time ahead of you, just remember to have fun. I just have a couple of hours work to do and then we are going out for food and will take it from there. Tomorrow we are going shopping and then I have a surprise for the girls, we are all getting our hair and make up done before we head down to the awards ceremony.”
“I hope you have fun too hunny, I am missing you so much already, I will bring you back something nice, something to remind you of Europe.”
“There is no need for that. I miss you too but I am sure the week will pass quickly.”
We chatted for about 30 minutes longer.
“As much as I hate doing this gorgeous I really need to get some work done before the girls come down to the room. Call me again soon, I love you lots.”
“I love you too hunny, bye.”
I spent the next while doing work and got really carried away because I was still in my dressing gown when Vero and Clair knocked on the door.
“Hey sorry girls, come in. I won’t be long. TK phoned and then I must have got so engrossed in my work because time just ran away with me.”
“That’s ok don’t worry. Why don’t you dry your hair and we will look out something for you to wear? How is TK? Marc said they had a good flight and they have a lot planned for the next few days.”
“Thanks. TK said much the same.”
I blow dried my hair and then quickly straightened it, I am lucky enough to have straight hair anyway but if I use the straighteners it shows of the layers slightly better. I got changed into the outfit that the girls had chosen for me so I ended up wearing skinny black jeans, brown knee high stiletto boots and a light brown v-neck fitted jumper with my brown suede cowboy style jacket.
We went out to a lovely restaurant and had the most delicious meal of course accompanied by some wine.
“I started reading your book Gill when you were working this afternoon, I am guessing the female lead is based on you and I think the male is Sid. It is really good and I can’t wait to read more, I want to know if they will eventually get together.”
“I am saying nothing. Once you have finished it I will email you the link to the original fanfic that it was based on because I published it on the internet a while back.”
“Cool.”
We stayed out for a few more drinks before heading back to the hotel. We agreed our time to meet and then all went our separate ways.
I lay in bed reading for a while when I heard my phone beep signalling a new text.
‘Hey hunny, miss you lots but having so much fun. Love you and will talk to you tomorrow.’
‘I am glad you are having fun Tyler. I miss you too, more than words can explain. Love you lots too. Take care xx’
At that I put my book down, switched off my light and quickly fell fast asleep.
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
Chapter 22
After arriving home I went for a swim until Tyler arrived home but I must have got carried away because I was still in the pool when he came in.
He took his shoes off and pulled his trouser legs up so that he can dangle his feet into the water. I finished my length then swim over to him where I massaged his feet.
“Did you sort things out with Sid?” He asks me as he strokes my wet hair.
“Yeah we made a lot of progress and I think we can be friends, I just hope that he never lays a finger on Lorna in a violent manner but I have agreed not to tell her about what happened, I hope I am doing the right thing.”
I eventually climbed out of the pool and made a meal for us both.
“I cant believe how things have worked out between us Gill, I am so happy when I am with you and you have done a lot for my game too, I feel more comfortable on the ice because I know that you are watching me.”
“I am happy too and I am glad that you feel I am helping your game.”
We went to bed relatively earlier than usual since TK was to be at the Mellon early and we quickly fell asleep in each others arms.
I woke up when my alarm beeped and decided to take a day off from my normal routine so that I could spend some more time with TK before he left.
We had breakfast and then I drove Tyler down to the Mellon.
“Well Gill, the time has come for me to leave you for a while. I will phone you when we get there and then everyday thereafter, I will be thinking of you all the time and will never stop missing you.”
I sat holding his hands as our eyes never left one and others.
“The week will pass so quickly that you will be back before you know it. I will miss you too and will look forward to talking to you on the phone. I will also watch your games against the Sens. Good luck gorgeous and have fun.”
We leaned in and kissed each other deeply, neither of us wanting to pull away even though we knew we had too. We eventually pulled away looking at each other in the eyes once again before TK left the car without saying anything further.
I spent the rest of the day in the office trying to get as much done as possible since I was leaving for New York the next day. I still left early to go home at about 1630 and took Lorna with me.
“Can you come up to my room please, I need to pack for going away to New York and you are so much more fashionable than me so you can keep me right, I don’t want to feel out of place when I am with Vero and Clair.” I said to Lorna after we finished up our dinner.
“Gill, what on earth have you done to your wrist?” Lorna asks as I reach up to get my suitcase.
“Oh its nothing, I tripped when I was out running the other morning.” She took a hold of my arm as I tried to move away.
“You did not do this by falling over, that is clearly a hand print.
“I hate asking this but is Tyler hurting you?” She looks so sad and worried as she stares at me. ‘I can’t tell her that it is her boyfriend that is violent and not mine.’
“Tyler would never hurt me, it bruised when I fell during my run the other morning.”
I could tell that she didn’t believe me but we both changed the subject.
We soon picked out some clothes for me and spoke some more about work as well as Tyler and Sid and many other things.
Lorna left a while later and I headed to bed with a book and a hot chocolate knowing that I would not hear from TK until tomorrow as they are on a long haul flight and they will lose time. ‘I hope they don’t get affected with jetlag too badly.’
He took his shoes off and pulled his trouser legs up so that he can dangle his feet into the water. I finished my length then swim over to him where I massaged his feet.
“Did you sort things out with Sid?” He asks me as he strokes my wet hair.
“Yeah we made a lot of progress and I think we can be friends, I just hope that he never lays a finger on Lorna in a violent manner but I have agreed not to tell her about what happened, I hope I am doing the right thing.”
I eventually climbed out of the pool and made a meal for us both.
“I cant believe how things have worked out between us Gill, I am so happy when I am with you and you have done a lot for my game too, I feel more comfortable on the ice because I know that you are watching me.”
“I am happy too and I am glad that you feel I am helping your game.”
We went to bed relatively earlier than usual since TK was to be at the Mellon early and we quickly fell asleep in each others arms.
I woke up when my alarm beeped and decided to take a day off from my normal routine so that I could spend some more time with TK before he left.
We had breakfast and then I drove Tyler down to the Mellon.
“Well Gill, the time has come for me to leave you for a while. I will phone you when we get there and then everyday thereafter, I will be thinking of you all the time and will never stop missing you.”
I sat holding his hands as our eyes never left one and others.
“The week will pass so quickly that you will be back before you know it. I will miss you too and will look forward to talking to you on the phone. I will also watch your games against the Sens. Good luck gorgeous and have fun.”
We leaned in and kissed each other deeply, neither of us wanting to pull away even though we knew we had too. We eventually pulled away looking at each other in the eyes once again before TK left the car without saying anything further.
I spent the rest of the day in the office trying to get as much done as possible since I was leaving for New York the next day. I still left early to go home at about 1630 and took Lorna with me.
“Can you come up to my room please, I need to pack for going away to New York and you are so much more fashionable than me so you can keep me right, I don’t want to feel out of place when I am with Vero and Clair.” I said to Lorna after we finished up our dinner.
“Gill, what on earth have you done to your wrist?” Lorna asks as I reach up to get my suitcase.
“Oh its nothing, I tripped when I was out running the other morning.” She took a hold of my arm as I tried to move away.
“You did not do this by falling over, that is clearly a hand print.
“I hate asking this but is Tyler hurting you?” She looks so sad and worried as she stares at me. ‘I can’t tell her that it is her boyfriend that is violent and not mine.’
“Tyler would never hurt me, it bruised when I fell during my run the other morning.”
I could tell that she didn’t believe me but we both changed the subject.
We soon picked out some clothes for me and spoke some more about work as well as Tyler and Sid and many other things.
Lorna left a while later and I headed to bed with a book and a hot chocolate knowing that I would not hear from TK until tomorrow as they are on a long haul flight and they will lose time. ‘I hope they don’t get affected with jetlag too badly.’
Sunday, 28 June 2009
Chapter 21
I get up the next morning and follow my usual routine, as I am swimming I feel my wrist begin to hurt and when I look at it I find it badly bruised. I decide to talk to Tyler about my run in with Sidney and see what he suggests I do.
After my shower I head down to the kitchen to find TK and Jordan already there cooking a fry up.
“Morning boys, sleep well?” I ask as I give Tyler a full kiss on the lips then give Jordan a peck on the cheek causing him to blush.
We sat and ate breakfast and talked for a while before Jordan decided to go home before afternoon skate and kung fu practice.
“Are you sure you will be ok Jordan?” I ask as I stand in front of him, looking into his bright blue eyes, concern evident in my voice.
“Yeah, I will be fine Gill, I don’t know what caused me to get so emotional last night. Thanks for everything.”
We said our goodbyes and he left moments later.
“TK, can we talk for a moment?” I ask as I return to this kitchen.
“Yeah of course, is everything ok?”
“Will you promise to keep your temper at bay?”
“You are worrying me Gill, what is wrong?”
“Promise me Tyler please.”
“Ok ok I promise.”
I pulled up my sleeve to reveal the bruise on my wrist and I proceeded to tell him about my run in with Sidney.
“I cannot believe that guy, who does he think he is? I will kill him when I see him this afternoon…!!” Tylers voice is raised and his face is red as he gets up from the table clenching and unclenching his fists.
“Tyler I made you promise for a reason, I can handle him myself but I want your advice on what to do next. Will you please sit down.”
Tyler eventually calmed down and we sat talking about various options before it was time for him to leave for afternoon skate.
“I will go home after kung fu and get my stuff for the trip and then come back here.”
We say our goodbyes and then I call Vero to see if she can recommend anything for the Sidney situation and we decide that it would be best for me to talk to him again before I mention anything to Lorna.
“Thanks for your help Vero. I shall see you on Tuesday for our trip to New York. Take care.”
“Anytime Gill, I am glad you feel you can talk to me. See you Tuesday I am really looking forward to it.”
I spent the rest of the afternoon doing some housework before it was time to head to the arena for kung fu.
The class went well with Marc-Andre being my volunteer and everyone putting a lot of effort into learning. It was clear that most of the guys had been practicing as I asked.
“Well done guys, you all done well. If you keep this up for the next week or so I think you will all be ready for your first grading. I have been in touch with a local kung fu instructor and he is happy to come along for the grading.
“Have a great time in Sweden and I will get you all up to the house again when you come back.
“Take care.”
I turned to walk away when I asked:
“Sidney, will you stay back a moment please I need to talk to you.”
The guys all left and Sidney sat himself down on one of the large window sills so I went and joined him.
“Did you have a good night last night Sidney?” I asked as I sat watching him staring out the window.
Finally he turned to look at me.
“I don’t really remember much about it, I was pretty drunk. Why do you ask?”
I pulled my sleeve up and rested my arm on his leg.
“Do you remember doing this to me?” His eyes widened and he had a genuine look of shock on his face.
“No, why on earth would I do that to you?” He takes a hold of my arm and gently rubs the bruise as he looks me in the eye searching for an answer.
“I asked you not to hurt Lorna and you lost your temper with me.”
“I am so sorry Gill I do not remember this at all. Please tell me what I can do to make things better.”
“You can start by promising me that you won’t hurt Lorna, she is like family Sidney and I can’t face anything happening to her.”
“I am falling in love with Lorna and I don’t plan on hurting her, I know I don’t show my emotions very well, I have never been good at explaining how I feel to people but I really like Lorna and want to be with her.”
“Are you sure you won’t hurt her if she says something that you don’t like the next time you are drunk?”
“I won’t hurt her Gill.”
We sat talking for a while and my feelings for him softened, I still didn’t trust him fully but I was beginning to come round and he assured me that he would never be violent with Lorna. I really hope I am doing the right thing with trusting him.
After my shower I head down to the kitchen to find TK and Jordan already there cooking a fry up.
“Morning boys, sleep well?” I ask as I give Tyler a full kiss on the lips then give Jordan a peck on the cheek causing him to blush.
We sat and ate breakfast and talked for a while before Jordan decided to go home before afternoon skate and kung fu practice.
“Are you sure you will be ok Jordan?” I ask as I stand in front of him, looking into his bright blue eyes, concern evident in my voice.
“Yeah, I will be fine Gill, I don’t know what caused me to get so emotional last night. Thanks for everything.”
We said our goodbyes and he left moments later.
“TK, can we talk for a moment?” I ask as I return to this kitchen.
“Yeah of course, is everything ok?”
“Will you promise to keep your temper at bay?”
“You are worrying me Gill, what is wrong?”
“Promise me Tyler please.”
“Ok ok I promise.”
I pulled up my sleeve to reveal the bruise on my wrist and I proceeded to tell him about my run in with Sidney.
“I cannot believe that guy, who does he think he is? I will kill him when I see him this afternoon…!!” Tylers voice is raised and his face is red as he gets up from the table clenching and unclenching his fists.
“Tyler I made you promise for a reason, I can handle him myself but I want your advice on what to do next. Will you please sit down.”
Tyler eventually calmed down and we sat talking about various options before it was time for him to leave for afternoon skate.
“I will go home after kung fu and get my stuff for the trip and then come back here.”
We say our goodbyes and then I call Vero to see if she can recommend anything for the Sidney situation and we decide that it would be best for me to talk to him again before I mention anything to Lorna.
“Thanks for your help Vero. I shall see you on Tuesday for our trip to New York. Take care.”
“Anytime Gill, I am glad you feel you can talk to me. See you Tuesday I am really looking forward to it.”
I spent the rest of the afternoon doing some housework before it was time to head to the arena for kung fu.
The class went well with Marc-Andre being my volunteer and everyone putting a lot of effort into learning. It was clear that most of the guys had been practicing as I asked.
“Well done guys, you all done well. If you keep this up for the next week or so I think you will all be ready for your first grading. I have been in touch with a local kung fu instructor and he is happy to come along for the grading.
“Have a great time in Sweden and I will get you all up to the house again when you come back.
“Take care.”
I turned to walk away when I asked:
“Sidney, will you stay back a moment please I need to talk to you.”
The guys all left and Sidney sat himself down on one of the large window sills so I went and joined him.
“Did you have a good night last night Sidney?” I asked as I sat watching him staring out the window.
Finally he turned to look at me.
“I don’t really remember much about it, I was pretty drunk. Why do you ask?”
I pulled my sleeve up and rested my arm on his leg.
“Do you remember doing this to me?” His eyes widened and he had a genuine look of shock on his face.
“No, why on earth would I do that to you?” He takes a hold of my arm and gently rubs the bruise as he looks me in the eye searching for an answer.
“I asked you not to hurt Lorna and you lost your temper with me.”
“I am so sorry Gill I do not remember this at all. Please tell me what I can do to make things better.”
“You can start by promising me that you won’t hurt Lorna, she is like family Sidney and I can’t face anything happening to her.”
“I am falling in love with Lorna and I don’t plan on hurting her, I know I don’t show my emotions very well, I have never been good at explaining how I feel to people but I really like Lorna and want to be with her.”
“Are you sure you won’t hurt her if she says something that you don’t like the next time you are drunk?”
“I won’t hurt her Gill.”
We sat talking for a while and my feelings for him softened, I still didn’t trust him fully but I was beginning to come round and he assured me that he would never be violent with Lorna. I really hope I am doing the right thing with trusting him.
Thursday, 25 June 2009
Chapter 20
We arrived at Mario’s house a short while later and were greeted immediately by Mario and Nathalie, they are such a great couple to spend time with. I had been in their company many times before at sponsorship lunches and such like.
We gradually made our way to the kitchen where we knew we would find the rest of the team. We spoke to many people on the way through, most of them I had no idea who they were.
“Hi Gill, Hi TK” Jordan shouts as he gets up to give me a hug, I feel his strong arms wrap around me and I wonder why such a nice guy is single.
“Hey Jordan how are you?” I ask as I hug him back.
As the party continues the guys become quite tipsy, allowing themselves to let their hair down as the party is closed to press and public and they don’t have a game until Thursday.
I end up sitting with Sidney at one point so I take the opportunity to do a bit of fishing and see if he is trustworthy.
“So Sidney, you and Lorna seem to be getting along well.” I say to him as I search his face for some emotion.
“Yeah, she is a great girl, I really like her and enjoy her company.” His face is cold and expressionless as he talks to me.
“I am going to cut to the chase here Sidney. Lorna is like family and I will not have you hurt her, I don’t trust you and am not sure that I like you. Please prove to me that I am wrong Sidney and treat Lorna well.”
I turn to get up so that I could find TK or Vero but I feel Sidney grab my wrist and pull me back down.
“Who gives you the right to tell me what I can and can’t do?” He continues to grab my wrist and look me in the eye.
“I am not for one minute trying to tell you what to do, I am just warning you that you will be sorry if you hurt Lorna. Please prove me wrong and treat her well.” I again turned away from him as he gripped my wrist tighter.
“What happened to the good boy image you have for the press, I really didn’t realise you were quite so fake.”
I turned to see TK and Lorna approaching with drinks for us all and when Sidney noticed them he quickly let go of me and starting laughing as if we had been having a good time so not to initiate any questions.
The remainder of the night went well and without any further dramatics. The boys were all pretty drunk so Vero asked if I could take her and Marc-Andre home. Of course I agreed as it was not out of my way.
“Let me just talk to Jordan before we leave Tyler, he looks upset.” I kissed Tyler then walked over to Jordan.
“Hey lovely, what is wrong? You look really sad.”
“Hello Gill” He says as he pulls me down to sit on his knee. “I am sad. I look around me and see you and Tyler happy, Flower and Vero, Clair and Petr, the list goes on and I have no one. I hate hearing everyone saying that they are going home to their girlfriends and wives and I am going home to an empty house. I hate to say this but I am jealous. I don’t want to be like Max and some of the others and just have whatever girl takes my fancy. I want someone to love me.” A single tear falls down his face, his sad eyes shining like bright blue crystals and it breaks my heart watching him as he holds me tightly.
“I am so sorry Gill I shouldn’t be pouring my heart out to you.”
“You have nothing to say sorry for I am your friend so you can talk to me anytime.
“Lets get you home Jordan.”
I stand up and take a hold of his hand so that he comes with me and nod to Tyler as I make eye contact with him so that he knows just to go along with everything.
We dropped Vero and Marc-Andre off first.
“Would you like to stay with us tonight Jordan, as you know I have plenty of room?” I ask as I pull away from Vero and Marc-Andres house.
“Would you mind? I don’t fancy being alone tonight. I am so sorry for imposing Tyler I promise I won’t bother you.” His voice is quiet and we have to strain our ears to hear him.
“You are no hassle Jordan you can stay as long as you need. Would you like to play the Xbox for a while when we get home?”
‘He just called my house home, I like that.’
The boys head to the basement as soon as we get in and I head to the kitchen to make hot chocolates. I decide to treat them and I make them with milk putting cream and marshmallows on the top.
I take all 3 cups down to the basement placing 2 on the table in front of the boys and I take the 3rd with me to the chair in the corner of the room, I eat the cream and the marshmallows and then place the cup down in front of me and pick up my guitar.
Quietly strumming away while lost in my own world Tyler and Jordan play computer games and I am completely oblivious to anything around me.
“Gill, you are such a talented musician. You should show off your talent instead of hiding it away.” Jordan stands wide eyed in front of me breaking me from the trance I was in.
“Na, I am happy just playing for fun, I wouldn’t have time to add anything else to my busy schedule, anyway, I want to make sure I have time to spend with you guys…” He smiles at me then stifles a yawn.
“Come on, I will show you to the guest room.” I take his hand and lead him away. Tyler is still sitting on the sofa playing games, I run my hand across his broad shoulders as I pass him.
“I will be up to bed in a few minutes honey, I will just finish this game and then wash up the cups.”
I took Jordan up to one of the guest rooms and showed him where to find things.
“Make yourself at home Jordan and we are just along the corridor if you need anything.” I say as I turn to leave the room.
“Wait a minute Gill” He holds me arm gently and turns me to look at him, “Thank you for tonight, Tyler is so lucky to have you in his life. I appreciate everything you have done for me.”
“Jordan, you are my friend and I am here for you anytime you need me, I have 2 strong shoulders for you to cry on or even if you just want to hang out then call me, please don’t feel like you don’t have anyone.
“Try and get some sleep and I will see you in the morning.”
I give him a hug and leave the room, heading to my own bed to try and get some sleep and find Tyler waiting on me.
“Hey gorgeous, I am sorry about tonight, I just couldn’t leave him on his own.” I take my clothes off and without bothering about Pyjamas I climb into bed next to him and hold him close.
“You have nothing at all to say sorry for, you are an angel and I appreciate everything you done for Staalzy tonight, he is one of my best friends.
“I am so lucky to have you as my girlfriend and I would be so lost without you.” He pulls me closer to him and kisses my forehead.
“I love you Tyler so much.”
We soon fall fast asleep while still in each others arms.
We gradually made our way to the kitchen where we knew we would find the rest of the team. We spoke to many people on the way through, most of them I had no idea who they were.
“Hi Gill, Hi TK” Jordan shouts as he gets up to give me a hug, I feel his strong arms wrap around me and I wonder why such a nice guy is single.
“Hey Jordan how are you?” I ask as I hug him back.
As the party continues the guys become quite tipsy, allowing themselves to let their hair down as the party is closed to press and public and they don’t have a game until Thursday.
I end up sitting with Sidney at one point so I take the opportunity to do a bit of fishing and see if he is trustworthy.
“So Sidney, you and Lorna seem to be getting along well.” I say to him as I search his face for some emotion.
“Yeah, she is a great girl, I really like her and enjoy her company.” His face is cold and expressionless as he talks to me.
“I am going to cut to the chase here Sidney. Lorna is like family and I will not have you hurt her, I don’t trust you and am not sure that I like you. Please prove to me that I am wrong Sidney and treat Lorna well.”
I turn to get up so that I could find TK or Vero but I feel Sidney grab my wrist and pull me back down.
“Who gives you the right to tell me what I can and can’t do?” He continues to grab my wrist and look me in the eye.
“I am not for one minute trying to tell you what to do, I am just warning you that you will be sorry if you hurt Lorna. Please prove me wrong and treat her well.” I again turned away from him as he gripped my wrist tighter.
“What happened to the good boy image you have for the press, I really didn’t realise you were quite so fake.”
I turned to see TK and Lorna approaching with drinks for us all and when Sidney noticed them he quickly let go of me and starting laughing as if we had been having a good time so not to initiate any questions.
The remainder of the night went well and without any further dramatics. The boys were all pretty drunk so Vero asked if I could take her and Marc-Andre home. Of course I agreed as it was not out of my way.
“Let me just talk to Jordan before we leave Tyler, he looks upset.” I kissed Tyler then walked over to Jordan.
“Hey lovely, what is wrong? You look really sad.”
“Hello Gill” He says as he pulls me down to sit on his knee. “I am sad. I look around me and see you and Tyler happy, Flower and Vero, Clair and Petr, the list goes on and I have no one. I hate hearing everyone saying that they are going home to their girlfriends and wives and I am going home to an empty house. I hate to say this but I am jealous. I don’t want to be like Max and some of the others and just have whatever girl takes my fancy. I want someone to love me.” A single tear falls down his face, his sad eyes shining like bright blue crystals and it breaks my heart watching him as he holds me tightly.
“I am so sorry Gill I shouldn’t be pouring my heart out to you.”
“You have nothing to say sorry for I am your friend so you can talk to me anytime.
“Lets get you home Jordan.”
I stand up and take a hold of his hand so that he comes with me and nod to Tyler as I make eye contact with him so that he knows just to go along with everything.
We dropped Vero and Marc-Andre off first.
“Would you like to stay with us tonight Jordan, as you know I have plenty of room?” I ask as I pull away from Vero and Marc-Andres house.
“Would you mind? I don’t fancy being alone tonight. I am so sorry for imposing Tyler I promise I won’t bother you.” His voice is quiet and we have to strain our ears to hear him.
“You are no hassle Jordan you can stay as long as you need. Would you like to play the Xbox for a while when we get home?”
‘He just called my house home, I like that.’
The boys head to the basement as soon as we get in and I head to the kitchen to make hot chocolates. I decide to treat them and I make them with milk putting cream and marshmallows on the top.
I take all 3 cups down to the basement placing 2 on the table in front of the boys and I take the 3rd with me to the chair in the corner of the room, I eat the cream and the marshmallows and then place the cup down in front of me and pick up my guitar.
Quietly strumming away while lost in my own world Tyler and Jordan play computer games and I am completely oblivious to anything around me.
“Gill, you are such a talented musician. You should show off your talent instead of hiding it away.” Jordan stands wide eyed in front of me breaking me from the trance I was in.
“Na, I am happy just playing for fun, I wouldn’t have time to add anything else to my busy schedule, anyway, I want to make sure I have time to spend with you guys…” He smiles at me then stifles a yawn.
“Come on, I will show you to the guest room.” I take his hand and lead him away. Tyler is still sitting on the sofa playing games, I run my hand across his broad shoulders as I pass him.
“I will be up to bed in a few minutes honey, I will just finish this game and then wash up the cups.”
I took Jordan up to one of the guest rooms and showed him where to find things.
“Make yourself at home Jordan and we are just along the corridor if you need anything.” I say as I turn to leave the room.
“Wait a minute Gill” He holds me arm gently and turns me to look at him, “Thank you for tonight, Tyler is so lucky to have you in his life. I appreciate everything you have done for me.”
“Jordan, you are my friend and I am here for you anytime you need me, I have 2 strong shoulders for you to cry on or even if you just want to hang out then call me, please don’t feel like you don’t have anyone.
“Try and get some sleep and I will see you in the morning.”
I give him a hug and leave the room, heading to my own bed to try and get some sleep and find Tyler waiting on me.
“Hey gorgeous, I am sorry about tonight, I just couldn’t leave him on his own.” I take my clothes off and without bothering about Pyjamas I climb into bed next to him and hold him close.
“You have nothing at all to say sorry for, you are an angel and I appreciate everything you done for Staalzy tonight, he is one of my best friends.
“I am so lucky to have you as my girlfriend and I would be so lost without you.” He pulls me closer to him and kisses my forehead.
“I love you Tyler so much.”
We soon fall fast asleep while still in each others arms.
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