Chapter 30

(TKs Prov)
As I stand under the hot water of the shower I think about the couple of hours that have just passed. Feeling Gill touch my skin again, seeing her look in my eyes has just enhanced the pain that has never really gone away since the minute I left her house. The pain I have felt in my heart has been excruciating, much worse than I could have ever imagined and the look in her eyes has enhanced the pain making it worse, she looked at me with hatred, with anger and I am not sure that their was any love there any more.

“Oi TK! Are you going to stand under that shower all day?” I hear Flower shout at me from the locker room breaking me from my trance.

“Na, I was just thinking.” I answer blandly switching off the shower and wrapping a towel around my waist, running my hands through my hair to try and keep the unruly curls at bay knowing that I am probably just making them worse and am in need desperate need of a hair cut.

“Will you sit down for a minute Tyler I would like to talk to you?” Flower asks me sounding very serious.

“What is this about?” I ask as I sit down opposite him on one of the benches in the middle of the locker room, he looked into my eyes as if trying to see what was going on in my mind.

“I know you probably won’t want to hear this but please listen to me…

“When you broke up with Gill we thought you must have been doing it for a reason that we did not know but the more I watch you the more I see how unhappy you are. You barely talk to us any more and you never come out with us after a game. Although your game is still good you are just not yourself any more and it worries me.

“Let me tell you a little secret. When I first got called up for the 1st team and started travelling with them Vero and I found it really difficult being apart from one and other. Growing up we were practically inseparable and then suddenly we were going for a week at least without seeing each other but you know what got me through it? The fact that I would see her smiling face when I got back home, that her bright eyes would only see me and her arms would hold me like I was the most important person in the world. I knew that I had that to look forward too and it held me together. She is my world and I would rather deal with the pain of missing her for a week than finishing with her and never feeling her touch again, never seeing her look in my eyes again, maybe never seeing her at all ever again, that thought for me is just to much to handle.

“Gill loves you Tyler and she has been feeling just as bad as you while you have been apart, probably feeling even worse than you do. Vero has not seen her in over a month and is really worried about her. Please at least talk to her and see if you can be civil to each other. We miss you both.

“I saw the way you looked at her at kung fu this afternoon, the emotion was starting to appear in your eyes again and I know that you felt something when you were working with her. Don’t be afraid of it, embrace the feelings and follow your heart.

“You are a very good friend of mine Tyler and I am worried about you. I hope you can find away to sort through this, please come and talk to me if you need someone and don’t shut us all out, I know Kris and Jordan miss you a lot and are very worried about you too.”

With that said he got up and put his hand on my shoulder, gave it a little squeeze and left the room without saying anything further. I sat there for a few moments longer with my head in my hands thinking about what he had said. His relationship with Vero is so strong and it is hard to believe they have ever had troubles, they are so happy together and a complete inspiration.

I eventually decided that I needed to talk to Gill.

I finished drying myself and got changed into jeans and a top instead of my usual training clothes, heading out to my car I noticed Staalzy and some others were still in the gym but instead of stopping and talking to them like I knew I should I headed to my car to drive to Gills.

As I reached my car I noticed hers was still parked next to mine. Hmm, I wonder where she is. I phoned over to her office to see if she had gone in to do some work. I rang her direct dial but got through to Lorna.

“Good afternoon, Robertson Publishing how can I help?” She answers in her usual bubbly voice.

“Hi Lorna its Tyler, is Gill in?”

“No, is she not over with you guys? It is good to hear your voice again Tyler.”

“Thanks Lorna, it is nice to hear yours too. We will have to try and meet up soon. She was here but we finished up about 40 minutes ago but her car is still out front. I will call her on her cell. Thanks Lorna, take care.”

I hung up and called her cell getting straight to voicemail, I left a quick message asking her to call me.

I went back into the Melon and tried the door handle to the training room where we had our kung fu class and it was locked but I swear I could hear something from inside so I headed down to Ray Shero’s office.

“Ray, have you seen Gill this afternoon?” I ask getting more worried by the minute.

“No, not since she finished up the kung fu class, you haven’t gone and upset her again have you?” He asks trying to lighten the mood.

“Not that I am aware of. Do you have the keys for the training room?”

“Gill still has them, she must have forgotten to give me them back.”

“I think she is still here, her car is still outside and she is not in her office, I am really worried Ray. Can you sign out the spare keys for me? I think she may have locked herself in the training room.”

Ray got the spare keys from reception for me and we went up to the training room just as Jordan came out of the gym.

I unlocked to the door to see Gill curled up in a ball rocking back and forward, tears spilling from her eyes.

“Thanks guys, I will take it from here.” I say to them both as I throw the keys at Jordan.

“Gill…” I reach down to her putting my hand on her shoulder.