I heard my phone ring over and over again but I just couldn’t bring myself to answer it. I didn’t want to talk to anyone and definitely did not want to see anyone.
I don’t know how long I had been sitting on the cold marble floor crying for when I heard the front door open. I jumped up from the floor getting such a fright at hearing someone in my house and opened the living room door to see Jordan walking towards me.
I just stood there staring at him, tears still flowing constantly from my eyes, I felt like a completely helpless child unable to move.
“Oh Gill what has he done?” Jordan reaches me and pulls me into him and as he does I once again break down, my whole body shaking as I feel my heart breaking further. He guided me back through to the living room and sat me down on one of the sofas letting me cry into his chest for as long as I needed him. His body was warm and it felt strange after sitting on the cold floor for so long.
“What has happened Gill? I just got a text from TK not long after I got home saying that he thought I should come round because you may need a friend at the moment. Talk to me, please. Why is he not here comforting you?”
I eventually sat up and looked at him, tears still flowing freely from my eyes.
‘I must look awful.’
Eventually I managed to find my voice after unsuccessfully trying to explain things a few times previously.
“He finished with me Jordan and I don’t know why. He told me he loves me and missed me when he was away but it is too hard and he thinks it is the right thing to do. I don’t understand Jordan, I know we have only been together a couple of weeks and I never expected to fall in love with him especially this quickly but he has broken my heart, I feel empty and sick, it is such a horrible feeling and I feel so stupid being this torn apart over the relationship since it was all still so new.”
I broke down again, unable to contain my emotions. Jordan pulled me close to him again, holding me against his strong body, I took a deep breathe taking in his scent.
‘He is going to make someone very happy when he finds the right woman. He has become like a little brother to me even though I have not known him for long, I feel like we have a connection.’
“I don’t understand either Gill. All he talked about when we were away was you and how he couldn’t wait to see you again. He does love you please believe me when I say that and I will do everything I can to make this better.”
“Thanks Jordan, you are so good to me. I am so sorry for dragging you out when you just got home, you must have so many places you would rather be.”
“Don’t be silly, we are friends Gill and as you told me not so long ago I am here for you any time you want and my shoulders are stronger than yours so I can carry more tears.” He answers trying to make me laugh.
I lay on the sofa with my head on Jordans lap for what felt like hours, he stroked my hair while I stared into space, eventually the tears drying up. ‘I feel so empty and alone, I cant believe I was so foolish to fall in love with Tyler so quickly but he made me so happy and I want nothing more than for him to walk in here and tell me that he was joking and that he takes it all back...! Stop being an idiot Gill, if he is going to treat you like that then he does not deserve you. I wish I could hate him but I can’t.’
“Gill sweetie, come on, lets get you up to bed. If you don’t mind I am going to sleep in your guest bedroom tonight just in case you need me.” Jordan didn’t bother to let me answer he just picked me up in his arms bridal style and carried me to my bedroom laying me gently on the bed.
“Goodnight Gill, try and get some sleep.”
I curled up under the covers without even changing my clothes and much to my surprise I fell fast asleep.
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