Chapter 28

I woke up feeling completely empty and sick to the bone but I got up and changed into my running gear, putting on my MP3 player I left the house for my usual morning run.

When I got back to the house Jordan was walking down the stairs.

“Morning Gill, how are you feeling?” He asked sleepily looking like he has only had about an hours sleep. He walked towards me only wearing boxer shorts and socks giving me a kiss on my forehead before heading past me to the kitchen.

“To be honest I feel numb, completely empty and sick to the bone all at the same time but I have to get on with my normal routine or I will drive myself insane. How are you? Would you like to join me for a swim?” I ask following him into the kitchen placing my water bottle and my IPod down on the kitchen counter.

Jordan helps himself to fruit juice and starts to boil the kettle as if he was at home.

“I am fine thanks other than having very cold feet, I love your house but you really need to consider getting carpets, I hate having cold feet, it is the one thing in this world that frustrates me.

“Have you not just been for a run? I suppose I could join you in the pool.”

“I don’t need carpets, I have under floor heating so if your feet are cold switch that on and you spend most of your time on ice so I thought your feet would be immune to the cold. I have just been for a 5 mile run and now I will swim 100 lengths. I am just going for a quick shower so I will meet you in the pool.”

I swam my 100 lengths and Jordan stopped at about 70.

“Jesus Gill, I can’t believe you are so damn fit, I don’t think TK was joking when he said that you were fitter than us all put together.”

I felt my eyes stinging again as I heard his name knowing that I will have to stop that if I am to hold a kung fu lesson this afternoon. I am dreading it, I don’t know how I am going to get through the 2 hours.

“I am so sorry Gill, it has become habit so quickly to associate you with Tyler. I wish I could take your pain away.”

We left the pool fairly quickly and Jordan very kindly made pancakes for breakfast and shortly later I managed to convince him to go home.

“I promise I will be ok on my own, I won’t do anything stupid and I will see you at kung fu this afternoon.”

I sent Lorna a text to let her know what has happened.

‘Hey Lor, don’t say anything to anyone but Tyler has broken up with me, I am completely broken hearted. I will see you tomorrow.’

I got a reply when she was on her lunch.

‘I am so sorry Gill, if you want me to do anything please call me, day or night I am here for you.’

The rest of the day the passed fairly quickly as I busied myself with work that I had taken home and before I knew it, it was time to leave for the arena.

I busied myself in the training room when I heard all the boys coming along. I swallowed hard and forced away the tears that were forming determined not to show emotion when everyone was here.

“Right guys, who is going to be my volunteer this week?”

Most of the guys raised there hands so I decided to choose Jordan, I knew that I could be comfortable with him and that he knew about Tyler and I, I was very unsure if anyone else knew. I made a mental note to try and keep the news out of the press, I can’t handle the jibes and such like that were inevitable.

The class went well but when I was giving my instructions for the next lesson I accidentally made eye contact with Tyler, his look was so cold, how could he have no feelings left for me, how could he act like nothing has happened? I suddenly had flash back to when the girls were round and I sang Faith Hill and Tim McGraw, that song is so fitting for this moment.