Monday 27 July 2009

Chapter 26

Thanks for all your comments, just a short chapter and I will try and post in a few days time.

(TKs prov)

‘After I closed the door to Gills house I sat down on the doorstep, hot tears ran down my face and I heard her start to play the piano, she sang a song that I did not know and the lyrics made me feel like such an idiot. She has such a beautiful singing voice – she is like an angel. Before I met Gill I never really paid any attention to the words of a song but she does, she really listens to them and remembers songs that have a lot of meaning and she has got me doing the same thing.

Maybe I am being selfish finishing with her but it hurt so much being away from her and I missed her more than I could ever explain, it is better to do it now rather than having her hate me in the long run for never being there for her.

Once she finished the song I heard her sobbing, in fact she was doing more than sobbing, she was crying uncontrollably and I wanted to go back in and tell her it was ok but I cant, I need to walk away.

I will text Jordan and see if he will go round and make sure she is ok, I know I can trust him with her, they have built up a good friendship over the last couple of months.

I got up and sat in my car, the hot tears still rolling down my face, burning my cheeks before they fall to my lips leaving the taste of salt lingering – am I really making the right choice?

As drove home I just felt empty, like everything good in my life was gone and it was my fault entirely. I don’t want to live my life without Gill, god I was even thinking about the day we get married and have children but the way I felt in Sweden was horrible, I cant even describe the feeling properly but I know I never want to feel it again and I never want Gill to feel it either. I know that if their were children I would feel even worse. It has to be this way, this is for the best.

Who am I trying to convince, I am such an idiot. I have just thrown away the best thing that has ever happened to me and I have no way of getting it back...’

Wednesday 22 July 2009

Chapter 25

The pens won there first game against the Sens with Tyler scoring the first goal of the season.

The next few days passed in a blur and it was soon time for Tyler to come home, I was so relieved as I had spent the last few days missing him like crazy and counting down the hours until he came home.

I heard the door open and I almost ran to him, pulling him into my arms and holding him tight but he just didn’t seem himself, he was distant almost, he barely even hugged me back before he let go.

“Is everything ok Tyler?”

“Fine” I got his one word answer then he walked off without kissing me or saying anything further.

‘I am really worried, I have such a bad feeling.’

I sat down in the living room and picked up my book again unable to concentrate enough to read any of the words on the page when eventually Tyler came and joined me but instead of sitting curled up to me like normal he sat at the opposite end of the room.

“Gill we need to talk.” He stated as he looked at anything but me as he fingers started picking apart the cushion that he had picked up so I knew straight away that he was nervous.

“You are worrying me Tyler, I don’t like this.” I wanted to get up and sit beside him but I couldn’t seem to find the strength to move.

“I think we should break up…”

I was completely stunned, I couldn’t bring myself to comprehend what he had said to me. My eyes were stinging as I tried to hold back the tears, I felt physically sick.

“I missed you so much when we were away. I love you so much more than I ever bargained for, more than I ever knew was possible but it is just too hard Gill. I can’t feel the way I did in Sweden every time I go away. It hurts too much to be away from you so I think it is best just to end things now before it gets harder.”

“You are making no sense Tyler.”

“Gill just stop it” he interrupts before I get a chance to say anything further, his voice hard and cold. “I can’t do this to you, it is easier this way. I have to go I will get my things another time.”

As he left the room he placed an envelope down on the coffee table then left the house without saying anything further.

‘I can’t believe he has done this to me.’

I went to my piano and without thinking of a song my fingers immediately started playing ‘Unbreak My Heart’ by Toni Braxton. The lyrics are as follows:

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry that tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my

Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....

I broke down in tears just as I finished the song, I cried for hours feeling my heart breaking further each second. I sat on the floor leaning against the wall feeling cold and so alone...

Wednesday 15 July 2009

Chapter 24

The next morning Vero, Clair and I went for breakfast and then headed out shopping. The day past so quickly with us all spending far too much money.

“Right girls we have somewhere to be, let’s go.”

“Where are we going?” They ask in unison.

“It is a surprise.” Thankfully they never asked any more questions.

We soon arrive at the beauty parlour that I picked out.

“They are going to do our hair, make-up and nails.”

“Wow, Gill you are amazing. Thank you.”

We all got dolled up and couldn’t wait to get back to the hotel to put our lovely dresses on that we had bought today.

Just as I got back to my hotel room my mobile phone started ringing and once again I was happy to see that it was Tyler.

“Hey Gorgeous”

“Hey hunny”

We chatted for an hour or so about what we had been doing for the day and we wished each other luck for tonight. Tyler’s good luck is for the friendly game that has been organised and mine for possibly winning the publishers award and for presenting two awards to my favourite authors James Patterson and Patricia Cornwell.

“Right gorgeous, I need to go and put my lovely dress on before the girls get here. Love you lots and will talk to you tomorrow.”

“Remember to send a picture of you all. Love you too hunny. Bye.”

I put on my dress and I looked at myself in the mirror.

‘I wish Tyler was here to see me’.

The dress that we chose for me was mid-calf length, fitted in all the right areas and floated out at the bottom. It was silver silk, my shawl was also made from silver silk with diamanté's scattered on it and it shimmered pink, my shoes and bag were just simple and they were a darker shade of silver.

Knock, knock.

The knock at the door signalled that Clair and Vero were here.

I opened up and immediately smiled at them. “You both look wonderful, come in. TK has requested that we take a photo and send it over to them.”

“You too look stunning Gill. I bet Tyler wishes he was here with you.”

I looked at them with almost sad eyes. “I wish he was here too, I miss him so much more than I could have imagined but I know that it is something I have to get used too.”

“You will get used to it, it took us time to adjust too but we are all going through the same thing so we just need to support each other and be there for one and other.”

We took a few pictures of us on my camera, one of us all individually and a couple of group photos. I linked my camera up to my laptop and emailed them to Tyler then text him to tell him to check his email. Within minutes all of our phones were ringing.

“Hey Tyler, I take it you got the photos?”

“You girls look amazing. Looking at you makes me miss you so much more.”

“Thanks Tyler, I miss you too and I can’t wait to see you on Sunday. I have taken Monday off so that I can spend some time with you.”

“Great stuff, I can’t wait. I will let you go and have a great night tonight. Love you.”

“You have a good night too, take care.”

We finished up our calls and then headed out to the awards. My company won best publisher of 2008 which I was over the moon about and I got on really well presenting the awards to James Patterson and Patricia Cornwell. I was so pleased that they were indeed lovely people and they both gave me signed limited edition books for my collection.

We all had such a good night and got back to the hotel at about 0200 so we crashed out immediately.

The next day we went home about midday and we all promised each other we would go away together again soon.

Sunday 12 July 2009

Chapter 23

The next morning I completed my usual routine of running and swimming followed by eating some fruit for breakfast and then heading into the office.

I had my normal meeting with Lorna before doing an hours work and soon it was time for Vero and Clair to arrive.

“Hey girlies how are you both?” I ask as they enter my office and I give each of them a hug.

We chatted for a while when Clair asked if she could see the library like I promised.

“Of course you can, just follow me.”

We got the lift down to the basement and I tell Clair to go in first.

“Wow, now this is my idea of heaven, I love it.”

The only way I can think of describing my library is it is very much like the one that the beast presents to Belle in Disney’s Beauty and the Beast with the high roofs and rows upon rows of books.

“Have you ever written a book Gill?” Clair asks as she looks about her in awe.

“Why would you ask such a strange question? Have you ever written a book Clair?” I reply as I smile at her.

“No but I would love too, however I would have no idea where to start. You have studied English and Publishing so I thought maybe you have tried your hand at writing your own book.”

“I have actually written a few books but I have never had any of them published although I did get a couple of them printed. This is my first attempt at writing, it started off as a fanfic about the Penguins, I wrote it when I was still in Scotland but before I put it to print I changed a few names so that it was less obvious who the characters were.” I took a copy from the shelf and handed it to her.

“It is called American Dream, let me know what you think of it.”

“Thank you so much.

“Why is this section behind glass with locked access?”

“Because it is all First-Editions, signed books or rare copies, all books with a high value that nobody gets to touch. I have never read those copies and never plan too I will just leave them there to gain value.”

We talked for a while longer before heading to the airport to catch our flight. When we arrived at the airport I walked off in a different direction to the other two.

“Hey Gill, you are going the wrong way, the gate is this way.” Vero shouted back at me.

“No, you are going the wrong way, come this way please.” I answered mischievously giving them a cheeky smile.

We approached the private check-in desk when I was greeted by a lady from the airport staff.

“Good afternoon Miss Robertson, your plane is waiting for you and we have all your requirements ready. Your pilot today is Captain Smith and your staff are Zoe and Matt. Do you have you and your friend’s passports?”

I handed my passports over and turned to Clair and Vero who had stunned expressions on their faces, their eyes wide and their mouths open.

“Do you have your passports girls?” I asked as I clicked my fingers in front of their faces breaking them from their trance.

“Yeah sorry” They both answer at the same time.

We complete our check-in and are escorted to my plane. The staff ask us to get seated and fasten our seatbelts and they would bring us refreshments after take off is complete.

“So Gill, why did you not tell us that you had your own plane?” Vero smiles at me.

“I wanted it to be a surprise. I am forever going on business trips and I got to the point that I was so annoyed with the service I was getting that I eventually bought my own plane. I let local schools and guiding associations and the likes use it too and I have also said to Ray to mention to the travel desk that they can use it if they want too. We are all actually heading to Detroit at the same time. I just accidently on purpose forgot to tell Tyler and the guys that they are going on my plane with me.”

After the smooth take off was over the flight staff came out with some food for us and a bottle a wine. We chatted for a while and before we knew it we had arrived in New York.

After we left the airport we got a taxi to the hotel.

“I have a couple of hours work I need to do ladies so how about you come up to my room in about 3 hours and we can head out somewhere to get some food and some more wine?” I asked as we waited to get checked in.

“Sounds good, we shall see you soon.”

Once I reached my room I went for a hot shower allowing myself to spend a bit longer under the water. I love the feeling of steaming hot water running down my skin.

‘I wish Tyler was here with me right now, I miss him already.’

I switched off the shower shortly after and heard my mobile phone ringing as I left the bathroom. I looked at the caller display and smiled to myself when I seen that it was Tyler calling.

“Hey Gorgeous, how are you?” I ask sounding excited to hear his voice.

“Hey hunny I am good thanks how are you?” He answers sounding tired.

“I am good thanks, we arrived in New York about an hour or so ago. You sound tired, I hope jetlag is not going to bother you to much.”

“I hope not, I slept most of the flight so I should be ok. We have just checked into the hotel and it looks nice, I am sharing with Jordan so that is cool. We are just going to nap for a bit then go out and explore. We have a skate tonight then training tomorrow morning before the scavenger hunt and then a friendly game against a local team at night.”

“Sounds like you have a busy time ahead of you, just remember to have fun. I just have a couple of hours work to do and then we are going out for food and will take it from there. Tomorrow we are going shopping and then I have a surprise for the girls, we are all getting our hair and make up done before we head down to the awards ceremony.”

“I hope you have fun too hunny, I am missing you so much already, I will bring you back something nice, something to remind you of Europe.”

“There is no need for that. I miss you too but I am sure the week will pass quickly.”

We chatted for about 30 minutes longer.

“As much as I hate doing this gorgeous I really need to get some work done before the girls come down to the room. Call me again soon, I love you lots.”

“I love you too hunny, bye.”

I spent the next while doing work and got really carried away because I was still in my dressing gown when Vero and Clair knocked on the door.

“Hey sorry girls, come in. I won’t be long. TK phoned and then I must have got so engrossed in my work because time just ran away with me.”

“That’s ok don’t worry. Why don’t you dry your hair and we will look out something for you to wear? How is TK? Marc said they had a good flight and they have a lot planned for the next few days.”

“Thanks. TK said much the same.”

I blow dried my hair and then quickly straightened it, I am lucky enough to have straight hair anyway but if I use the straighteners it shows of the layers slightly better. I got changed into the outfit that the girls had chosen for me so I ended up wearing skinny black jeans, brown knee high stiletto boots and a light brown v-neck fitted jumper with my brown suede cowboy style jacket.

We went out to a lovely restaurant and had the most delicious meal of course accompanied by some wine.

“I started reading your book Gill when you were working this afternoon, I am guessing the female lead is based on you and I think the male is Sid. It is really good and I can’t wait to read more, I want to know if they will eventually get together.”

“I am saying nothing. Once you have finished it I will email you the link to the original fanfic that it was based on because I published it on the internet a while back.”

“Cool.”

We stayed out for a few more drinks before heading back to the hotel. We agreed our time to meet and then all went our separate ways.

I lay in bed reading for a while when I heard my phone beep signalling a new text.

‘Hey hunny, miss you lots but having so much fun. Love you and will talk to you tomorrow.’

‘I am glad you are having fun Tyler. I miss you too, more than words can explain. Love you lots too. Take care xx’

At that I put my book down, switched off my light and quickly fell fast asleep.

Wednesday 8 July 2009

Chapter 22

After arriving home I went for a swim until Tyler arrived home but I must have got carried away because I was still in the pool when he came in.

He took his shoes off and pulled his trouser legs up so that he can dangle his feet into the water. I finished my length then swim over to him where I massaged his feet.

“Did you sort things out with Sid?” He asks me as he strokes my wet hair.

“Yeah we made a lot of progress and I think we can be friends, I just hope that he never lays a finger on Lorna in a violent manner but I have agreed not to tell her about what happened, I hope I am doing the right thing.”

I eventually climbed out of the pool and made a meal for us both.

“I cant believe how things have worked out between us Gill, I am so happy when I am with you and you have done a lot for my game too, I feel more comfortable on the ice because I know that you are watching me.”

“I am happy too and I am glad that you feel I am helping your game.”

We went to bed relatively earlier than usual since TK was to be at the Mellon early and we quickly fell asleep in each others arms.

I woke up when my alarm beeped and decided to take a day off from my normal routine so that I could spend some more time with TK before he left.

We had breakfast and then I drove Tyler down to the Mellon.

“Well Gill, the time has come for me to leave you for a while. I will phone you when we get there and then everyday thereafter, I will be thinking of you all the time and will never stop missing you.”

I sat holding his hands as our eyes never left one and others.

“The week will pass so quickly that you will be back before you know it. I will miss you too and will look forward to talking to you on the phone. I will also watch your games against the Sens. Good luck gorgeous and have fun.”

We leaned in and kissed each other deeply, neither of us wanting to pull away even though we knew we had too. We eventually pulled away looking at each other in the eyes once again before TK left the car without saying anything further.

I spent the rest of the day in the office trying to get as much done as possible since I was leaving for New York the next day. I still left early to go home at about 1630 and took Lorna with me.

“Can you come up to my room please, I need to pack for going away to New York and you are so much more fashionable than me so you can keep me right, I don’t want to feel out of place when I am with Vero and Clair.” I said to Lorna after we finished up our dinner.

“Gill, what on earth have you done to your wrist?” Lorna asks as I reach up to get my suitcase.

“Oh its nothing, I tripped when I was out running the other morning.” She took a hold of my arm as I tried to move away.

“You did not do this by falling over, that is clearly a hand print.

“I hate asking this but is Tyler hurting you?” She looks so sad and worried as she stares at me. ‘I can’t tell her that it is her boyfriend that is violent and not mine.’

“Tyler would never hurt me, it bruised when I fell during my run the other morning.”

I could tell that she didn’t believe me but we both changed the subject.

We soon picked out some clothes for me and spoke some more about work as well as Tyler and Sid and many other things.

Lorna left a while later and I headed to bed with a book and a hot chocolate knowing that I would not hear from TK until tomorrow as they are on a long haul flight and they will lose time. ‘I hope they don’t get affected with jetlag too badly.’